After a year has passed since I was trecking around Utah's mountains I can sit back and reminiss, the good times and the bad, the life changing experience now seems like years upon years ago.
This time 2 years ago I would have been off my face in some park somewhere, or fighting with my parents, But no, I am in school, Free lesson

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Thinking about "Brat Camp" Aspen Achievement Academy makes me realise JUST how far myself and the other 6 girls have come, at those times when we didn't think we would make it over the next mountain we pushed that little harder and made it.
Life has changed for me, which was the point in Aspen, but, the changes havent been ones I ever expected, When I look out of the window I apreciate things more, the little things, When sitting in a class, the teacher, the pupils, they make me smile, help me, teach me.
Obvious things such as my relationships with people have changed, including Max, Mommy and Dad. Friends have come and gone but I guess thats just being 16.
People dont often know how to react when they realise who I am, well, who I was. It used to make me feel insecure and paranoid, now I just giggle because it is quiet funny to watch their facial expressions change, and the way they treat you. This isnt always possitive, being on brat camp has given a lot of people something to use against me, making up things that isnt always true, again, at first this upset me, now I am immune to it, I prove them all wrong anyway. Well the majority, life would be boring without enemies, everyone has them, it's life.
I lie awake often at night, I wish I was in Utah, under the stars where I wished I was at home, Its amazing the one place I didnt want to be at the time I long to be now and vica versa.
But then I remember about all my material objects I love, and decide it would be better to stay with them, Life without music and computer seems unliveable again, not the best thing to say; but its the truth.
Anway, that was my rant.
This is also a goodbye to this forum, I will check up on replies etc, but i will no longer be commenting or replying. I want to let go of the title "Brat Camp" and focus on life to the day. Living in the past can be dangerous, moving on is the best thing, finally getting back into the outside world again.
Bye.
xxxxxxx