i love gok and have found some really useful tips and hints from him. Is there anyone else out there that is like me, size 10/12 age 45, needs toning up, that doesnt believe people when they say I look ok for my age. I hate having my photo taken because I think every photo looks crap! I've got a great guy who constantly tells me I look great but i need to convince me! How do I deal with this?

You betcha! I'm the same age as you but a size larger - depending on where I buy from. I've been with my husband for 21 years and most of that time he's been telling me I'm gorgeous even when I was hugely pregnant (twice). I hate having my photo taken - I'd rather go to the dentist. BUT for the last six weeks I've been given a boost watching HTLGN - my body confidence is improving. You have to somehow identify with all those girls who've been 'gokked', put yourself in their position and see yourself standing up there on that catwalk looking gorgeous. I've started taking time out for myself - stupid things like painting my toenails - making sure I exfoliate, using body lotion, going to the hairdressers and wearing make-up everyday - even if it's just mascara. I thought by forty I'd love the skin I'm in, become this amazing, confident beautiful woman, like every forty something celebrity says in the magazines, but it didn't happen. Now by watching this programme, I've realised how brain washed I've become in trying to keep up with the perfection fantasy you see in the media. Now when I look in the mirror instead of picking out my faults - I give myself a big cheesy grin and say "Not bad for old bird " !! This isn't the dress rehersal and you've got to make the most of now. Sorry if I've gone on a bit - I hope you start seeing your good bits. JulieD