heeby, i feel really bad for you.

its obvious your parents love you deeply, but in my opinion you only get one life and you need to live it for you. your a grown woman and its a shame they are still treating you as a child. i kind of understand that though, im 22 this month (omg, i feel so old!) and im still babied. my parents see me as a 16 year old, but i like it that way! although i can be a real brat at times and cry over stupid things and i believe its because of the way iv been brought up. if you dont have some independence you wont be a very good adult (like me!)

is there no way you can talk to them? just quietly sit down and ask for some more freedom, even if its one 'heeby' day where you do as you please, im sure if you tell them your unhappy they will at least listen?

you must keep me up to date with this heeby, i'd like to know if you make any progress.

heart you lots!

i hate valentines day too now since splitting with my girlfriend... sounds like this
thread was a good idea! we'll always be there for one another :] i'm still so young at 17, but seeing the strength u all have is an inspiration!

but give me a min to get off my wii, and on pc, and ill share somthing which is deeply troubling me.

if we weren't related i would be your date for valentines. if you wanted?

awwww lovely! rebecca just turned me down cos were aunt and nephew, which is kinda understandable!

yer but im your sister which is a little inbred really. lol!! i still love you though!

what i was going to say, was that im very concerned with my health. not my pysical health, though im having an operation on a hernia, that should be ok.

i mean my mental health. when my dad and grandad thought i had gona to the shops [and i was really by the door] they were saying how they think im very screwed up. for once, i have to agree. i know how ad obsessive compulsive disorder gets for people, but i sorta do thinsgthat really scare me. if im closing me bedromm door, at my worst i will spend half an hour opening and reclosing the door, concentrating hard on the gap in the door, to make sure i see no shadows , and my eyeline is in the middle of the gap ????? if i close a door too fast or too slow i will open/ close it again, and again... when i was younger i used to count the steps i made with my feet. only 1-2-1-2-1-2 ect... and i got very upset when i lost the count, so weird i know. i even only just got over this phase of obsessive blinking, where i would have to wink with the other eye, if when i winked, one eye was stronger! i would blink very fast or in patterns to suit what my brain asked????? im am more insecure and paranoid than anyone i can imagine. i cant bear leaving my friends at college for a different lesson, as i start to invent what they are saying about me. (i never had any real friends till year 11 of school, and was bullied from the start of secondary school, by DIFFERENT groups of people!) now i always think they don want me there. i was awful with my girlfriend at times, because we were so far apart, i would always ask what she had been doing, going ect. but its the same when i saw someone i liked (a friend) who had been talking to me less and less, talking to someone else. when i said i disturb myself, i mean that i imagined ways to hurt him. i'' tell you one last thing, that i really dont want you thinking of me badly for. whenever a big newsstory breaks, like a terriost bomb, or a tidal wave, most recently, i have this sick fixation that hoping there be more people dead, as my mind just likes the idea of a big thing happening. when this happens [i never say it, and have never, ever said this to anyone before] i feel so ashamed, like u wont belive. of course i dont like people dying, but at times my mind just seems to be a different thing to myself. its brought me very close to tears many times, as i know how painful death is. as i say, please dont down on me because of it, its upsetting as it is. i dont know if its do with my upbringing, i haven't actually ever had any stable home for more than 4 or 5 years or so, and i dont mean moving houses. i know you are probably very shocked and disgusted, i would understand if you didn't want me here after that. i know at times i dont want myself here, as in, in the world. i dont know what iut is. im very aware what im doing, how silly, sick it is, yet i cant control it?!?!?!?!? straight after i lament myself in my head, its like i have some kinda alter-ego and its very upsetting, and frankyl ive had enough of just ignoring it, ive told this for the first time, some of those things, and i think i really should see someone about the paranoia if anything

like i say, feel free to say what you like about me, i got very used to it over years
:'(

awww. i love you! please don't feel bad! we all have our personnality that suits us. don't let it get you down. on here you have made a lot more friends that all love you and even have a family that love you. (i do! and im not just saying that)

i actually can't think of anything bad to say to you or about you. i love you!

oh, well thank you, but i think i am sick, and i would liek ot see someone about it, even just through curio as to whats bloody wel causing it!!

i hate valentines cos thats when got engaged original or what. Going out this year cos it's a friends birthday and we are all single so going to terrorise the town

terry,

we love you no matter what, you are always welcome here, infact i would be very upset if you left.

we all have problems and it is nothing to be ashamed of but i urge you to speak to somebody, can you sit with your mum and dad and just let them know that you would like to speak to a doctor, if you cant do that then it is fine to go to the doctor alone. just get it off your chest and tell the doctor exactly what you told us. you'll feel so much better and he/she might refer you to a counsellor who can talk through your problems with you. keep posting on here about it if you want and we will all help too because we heart you very much.

listen to your aunt she gives good advice!

awwww thx! knew i could count on you, cheering myself up with my another green wing day, over last 3 days or so, been watching the whole thing, backwards, series 2 first, then series one. bu ti think it'd b coll to watch whole thing backwards, ie, special then eppy 8, 7 ect, through to series 1 eppy 1!!

your welcome! watching it backwards thats funny!

may have to try it watched it forward enough and feel like a change

you guys are all brilliant - you know that?!
such supportive lovely friends. I heart you all!

i heart you too

Now can somone tell me how you all get the messages at the end of your posts cos i'm a technical idiot

forget that somehow i figured it out just took longer to appear than i thought

THEY GOT RID OF MY BROTHER! *burst into tears* whoo, iss, ggooiing, to, lookk, affter, meee, noow?? *crys some more*

*crys still*

i want my brother back!

i'm sure he'll be back. i hope he will.
but i'll look after you! i promise cus.

promise?

thank you heeby! i love you!

pinky promise.
i'll always look after you!
and when i go crazy i expect you to tell everyone that i was infact sane.....once....a very long time ago.....

i will! pinky promise! can i ask what do you mean when you go crazy?? tehehe

good point.....i think i may be getting crazier though....lol

really? is that possible!