Heres my second fanfic. I had a good response from my last one even though it was a kind of spur of the moment thing lol. Hope you like this as much as some people liked my last one ….

Chapter 1

There it was. In the centre of the desk. That single slice of branded paper could change her whole life forever , her friendships , her career and more so , whether or not she would continue her relationship which had just got on track. Trust it she thought , when everything is going perfect for her , well most things as her parents weren’t speaking to her because of the relationship she chose over them , but never mind that. Just when everything was going perfect, everything could be ruined in the few moments that it took her to rip open the letter that had just been sat on her desk for the past few weeks. She glared at it. She could not bare the thought of opening the letter as opening the letter would mean her fate would uncontrollably be decided and she could not accept that. She should be the one to control it , not some stupid letter from some stupid doctor. And anyway she thought , doctors get things wrong these days don’t they ? They’re not always right. That’s what she had been telling herself over the past few weeks ; the doctors can get some things wrong so whatever was contained in that letter could be wrong so why open it if it could be a lie? Why upset everyone around me if the information could be false? That’s what stopped her opening it each and everytime , the thought of the letter being incorrect , wrong , false , anything not right. She picked up the letter and stared at it for a few seconds. Maybe I should just get it over and done with she thought. No. No. I cant. I haven’t these past few weeks and nothings happened and the doctors haven’t phoned so surely I must be ok? That niggling feeling crept back into her head again. Yer sometimes doctors can be wrong but they can be right most of the time and what if they’re right this time? Uggh she thought .. this is too stressful. With that thought she shut the letter away in a draw where it couldn’t bother her any longer and stepped out of her room and out into the village.

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#2 of the kris and jess 4eva club

Sorry its a short one its just like a linking chapter to the other one ..

Oh how wrong she was in thinking that a walk in the village was all she needed to clear her head. Oh boy it wasn’t. The thoughts only circulated her already busy mind as she looked around looking at everyone around her. Why could they be happy and not me ? Why was it me with a possible death sentence hanging over my head and not that scrounging homeless guy down the alley ? God what am I thinking , im being so selfish. She nearly broke down in tears but refrained as people were already looking at her as if she was some mad woman. She would never wish this worry on someone else , not even her worst enemy how could I even think about giving someone the stress that came along with what she may or may not have? That’s it! I cant carry on like this I need to see that letter. I would rather be sick and calm than perfectly healthy and losing my marbles with worry. Suddenly feeling much more in control and a lot less stressed she decided its now or never , I have to know no matter what , I can get on with my life then, no matter how short or lengthy it may turn out to be. As soon as she got back she took out her key , turned the lock and went back in. She went to walk straight to her room but stopped in her tracks

“ Put the kettle on tranny “

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glad ur all liking it xx im just writing chapter three now but im trying to make it sound good so it will probably be up at around half 3 or 4.

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Sorry its been longer than expected but i tried to make it sound good hope you enjoy!

Chapter 3

Jess carried on back to her room suddenly feeling a sigh of relief and as she went into her room a huge grin spread across her face. All her worries had been for nothing , sure she could be ill but then again so what ? Yer she could be ill but she would still have her friends and family to support her , to be there for her. She wouldn’t be alone no matter what and she knew that. She didn’t even remember what made her think she would be. But that grin was swiftly wiped from her face as she went to her draw to retrieve the vital letter. Where was it? She turned her whole room upside down looking for the letter , not in the draw , not under the mattress , not in the bin. Where could it be? Jess walked out the room looking flustered and worried.

Jess: Has anyone seen a letter with my name on?

Kris looked at her wondering why she looked so uptight, it was just a letter so why was she worrying so much? All the while jess was trying to keep a straight face as to not let kris know she was worried. She knew how he couldn’t keep his nose out of other peoples business , especially Jess’ . She loved the fact he cared so much but she didn’t know how she would deal with him if he suspected anything. She couldn’t let him so she just acted as if she wasn’t fazed by the missing letter.

Kris: Err jess I think I seen that this morning , but it wasn’t in your draw it was just sat on the side and it was open so I just assumed youd read it so I binned it. You had read it right? (He could see the shocked look on her face) Are you ok Jess?

Jess: Yer im fine don’t worry I just needed it but it wasn’t urgent just forget about it.
Kris: You sure? You look a bit off today , have done for the past few days are you sure it wasn’t important?

He went over to put his arm around her shoulder and give her some comfort. He knew something was wrong deep down but she wasn’t letting on but before he could give her a hug she had rushed off to her room. Usual snob behaviour he thought laughing to himself , keeping up a front just to seem stronger then she was. He didn’t know whether to go to her room and see if she was okay or not , he decided not to. She knows where I am if she needs me. He knew she wasn’t her usual self and didn’t like the thought that she wasn’t letting it out.

Meanwhile in her room Jess stood against her door in shock. Someone knows , but I don’t even know yet. Now im not going to know! Oh god what am I going to do? Obviously someone doesn’t want me to find out, but for good or bad reasons. She soon enough she slid down the cheap pine door and was in a ball crying hysterically with the music on so no one could hear her. How could someone be so callous to do this to me? She sat there crying for what seemed like hours when infact it was only about 15 minutes. She decided she couldn’t sit around all day moping , she had to do something about it , she went up to her mirror and started to make herself look better to go out and face the music and go to the doctors and find out once and for all.

Kris: Jess..Jess…JESS ( he kept banging on the door but she couldn’t hear him as she was lost in her own thoughts trying to look her best and of course the music was still on loudly. He barged in her room and saw her face ; not its usual self , she had red puffy eyes and her mascara smudged. He definitely knew something was up. He went up to her and wrapped his arms around her. She couldn’t help but start crying again.)

Jess: Oh god look at me ive only just put this make up on and its smudged again she said laughing.

Kris: Jess whats wrong come on you can tell me , I know you sed before you were ok but look at you! Your obviously not , I can tell you’ve been crying. He stood there looking at her face , it broke his heart to see her in such a state, he wiped her tears away and she smiled.

Jess didn’t want to say anything incase there was nothing to tell so she told him the first thing that came into her head.

Jess: Kris honestly its just me being a bit emotional you know , studies and just theres stuff going on back home , its just getting to me that’s it. She thought it was quite a convincing lie and she didn’t want him to get just as stressed and as worried as she was so she hoped he believed her.

Kris: Ok , fancy coming down the SU ? Zak wants to go as per usual , theres never a day when he doesn’t have a beer huh. Come on it’ll take your mind off things.

Jess: I’ll meet you there later ive just gotta do some things first and some calls to make. Ill see you later.

And with that they leaned in and kissed , hugged and then kris left for the SU. As soon as she heard a bang coming from the front door and she knew no one else was there she went to use the phone.

Jess: Hi , it’s Jessica Harris …..No sorry I never got the letter so I was wondering if I could come to the surgery and get them myself?…. Yes sure what time……Now? Yes sure that’s great ill be there in ten minutes……Bye now , thanks.

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chapter 4 will be up in about ten minutes coz its only a short one n after that therell be a vote to what happens next !

ooooooo whats wrong with jess

Now if i told you that would be giving the plot away wouldnt it ull find out in the next few posts x

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Im just writing the next few chapters now im just trying to word it right to make it sound good so it might be about 20 minutes then therell b options at the bottom of the next part and after a vote on the options ill write whatever is most popular

Chapter 4

She had been waiting in the waiting room at the surgery for about twenty minutes now. Surely since they asked her to come straight away someone would be free to see her? She couldn’t help but fidget , she was more nervous than she had ever been in her whole life . It was only five minutes or so before her name was called.

“Miss Harris”

She walked through to the doctors room at the very back of the surgery. Down the hallway there was nothing but silence, she prepared herself for the worst.

“Long time no see Jess how have you been?” She felt very comfortable with her doctor , he was the family doctor and hed been seeing to her since she was about 3 years old. He was a very good family friend and had always been there for them.

“Im fine” She said as she sat there rubbing a ring , with tiny precious diamonds set into the gold band ever so delicately, each one as special as the other.

“You’ve still got the ring I see? I remember you coming in with that when you were thirteen and you haven’t taken it off since. You must really miss them all.”

“Yer I do , a lot. Can I have my results please?”

She remembered the day she got the ring. She was about 12 or 13. She had never been so close to someone as she had been to her older sister , not even her parents. Although her sister was 22 they had a great time together, she could tell her anything and needn’t worry about her sister telling her parents no matter what. She could trust her sister with everything and her sister with her. Her sister was at uni but always managed to visit her every weekend and they would do anything Jess wanted ; swimming , horse riding , going to the park and of course shopping! But as the months went by her visits became less and less frequent. Jess was devastated but understood why her sister couldn’t be with her all the time , she was at the hospital. One weekend stuck out in her mind

**Flashback**

Cassie ( her older sister) : God ive missed you Jess have you been good for mum and dad? ( Hugs her tightly )

She loved the way her sister treated her like a child as her parents expected her to be grown up and adult about everything from a young age. When her sister was around she could act her age , like a carefree teenager with no problems at all.

Jess: Cass!! Ive missed you to sis. Are you ok now its been ages since I seen you? Mum and dad don’t let me come the hospital coz they think im too little and ill get traumatised. Its stupid of them coz they always want me to be grown up but wont let me visit my older sis!

Cassie : It’s best if you don’t sweetie , lots of stuff goes on at the hospital , Jess theres something I have to tell you hun.

Jess: What cass?

Cassie gave her an expensive looking gold band with a single small diamond in the centre and held it in Jess’s hands.

Cassie: Jess sweetie when I go I want you to keep this ring and keep it with you forever. You may not think im not with you but I am, in this diamond. Now don’t get upset but when I go and the visits stop you might feel lonely in this big house but just look at the ring and remember that im always with you. Through thick and thin , ill always be there for you sis. She kissed Jess’s head and went to get some things for Jess and her to have a good time with.

**End of flashback**

That was the last time Jess ever saw her sister. Her parents never allowed her to the funeral as they thought she was too young for that kind of thing. She had always resented them for this as she never had a chance to say a real and final goodbye. Since that day that ring had never been taken off her finger for longer than 10 minutes when she took it to the jewellers , she wanted her sisters diamond to shine brighter than the stars above where her sister would be looking down on her. Each time someone died in her family she would get a diamond specially made and placed around the first diamond , around her sister , to remind her that they to were also with her. When she looked down at the diamond she never felt lonely but she knew her life would be over sooner than any other normal person. The illness ran in the family. Cancer. A year would never go by without at least one person passing on in her family and not a year would go by when another diamond was set into the band. People thought she was just flashing her cash but she knew she wasn’t. It was about feeling loved , secure and as if her family were with her no matter what. If only they were with her at that very moment..

“ Im sorry Jessica , the tests came out positive. “

She broke down almost immediately, even with the ring she had never felt more alone in her whole life. No one was there to hold her , to calm her down or reassure her , not that she needed reassurance, she had lost most of her family to the disease so what would make her any different. She knew her time would be running out but then a thought came to her mind. Kris , Zoe , Zack and her friends and family. How was she to tell them all that her time with them was coming to an end? That they would have to deal with her illness and watch it destroy her just like everyone else in her family?

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Now you guys get to choose what happens next!!

A) Jess dumps Kris to save him from having to look after her and let him have a better life and he tries to fight for her back when she tells him why she dumped him

B)She leaves and goes home without telling anyone and while at home she recovers and returns back to hollyoaks to face the music

C) She tells them all and they suddenly dont know how to act round her and become distant and she feels alone and becomes depressed and self harms or something along those lines

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