Kris & JP walk down the street in the afternoon - on their way to "The Dog". They are talking & Jp glances up, suddenly seeing Kieron up ahead listening to an old lady[one of his parishoners] who is busy in conversation.

JP:[tired tone, looks down] Oh No!
Kris:Well this place is too small to avoid each other forever.

[Kieron looks past the old lady, sees JP and looks down quickly as if in deep conversation]

Kris: [smiling] Think someone can't face you.
JP: He's busy!
Kris: Or he has a broken heart he's trying his best to disguise.
JP: Oh shut up will you? I don't want to think about it.
Kris:[smiling more broadly]Well I wouldn't mind thinking about it.
JP:If you've got nothing better to talk about I'm going to the Union, I'll see you later.
[He turns away from Kris and speeds up just as Kieron looks up again. He notices JP leave & a sadness sweeps across his face which Kris, who is still watching, sees. Kris shakes his head slowly looking at the direction JP has exited towards so swiftly.]

[Later in the Student Union entrance, JP is leaving, checking his bag & he bumps into Kieron who is making his way up the steps with his head down.]
JP:[not looking up or realising who it is at first] Oh sorry mate.
Kieron:[instantly recognising his voice, looks up]Sorry for what?
JP:[shocked, looks up embarrassed]Erm...
Kieron: Forget it, its Ok.
JP:No... I mean...what are you doing here?
Kieronon't worry I've not come to find you.
JP:I didn't mean...
Kieron:[smiles a short cynical smile]No... . I've come to give a talk. The Catholic society have asked me to come in to talk about "moral dilemmas". Ironic isn't it?
JP:[ can't quite stop himself staring into Kieron's eyes as he speaks, realizes & tries to cover it up by speaking more harshly]I hope you're not using personal experience.
Kieron: Don't worry... I won't ruin your reputation. Priest aren't meant to have that kind of personal experience are they? I'll be speaking on behalf of the church.
JP:[looks at floor,feeling bad about his accusation]Oh...
Kieron:Well I best get going if I'm not going to be late. I'd say see you there but I know you left your faith behind a long time ago.
[He moves up a few steps]
JP:Kieron...
Kieron:Yes?
JP:...[struggling to know what to say but strangely unwilling to watch him leave]I hope it goes OK.
Kieron:[flat tone as if he had expected something more]Yeh...thanks.See you.
[Kieron moves up the steps & into the building. Jp watches him go, he is aware of a need to follow him, to be near him... but he turns away.]

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Glad you like it so far...

The inside of a meeting room in the Union, a mixed group of twelve students sit in a circle on plastic chairs facing a broad shouldered man in a black shirt who is sitting with his back to the door. Father Kieron listens intently to the question from a student to his right...

Student:...the trouble is Father, everyone goes on about Uni being the place to meet girls, have a good time, get drunk - but how can we relax with all that if we have to stop at some point and say "Sorry I can't take you back to mine cos I'm Catholic"? What if that's exactly what I really want to be doing? I'm certainly getting sick of watching my mates get lucky while I stand on the sidelines. Does that make me a bad Catholic or will God understand?
[Murmurs of assent from some of the other students]

FK:[smiling reassuringly]Well no-one would want to stop you having a good night out with your mates. Cheap beer is certainly one of the highlights of student life as far as I can see. [His tone becomes more serious]
But if you are talking about what happens after that...about sex... then there are guidelines the Church would hope you'd follow...

[As he speaks, the door behind him quietly opens, a friendly looking girl sitting opposite the door gestures to the newcomer that there is an empty seat beside her. The young blond haired man puts his hand up to say no thanks. Kieron engrossed in answering the question is unaware of the new arrival who remains standing by the door.]

FK:[continues thoughtfully]The Church teaches us that a physical relationship should be an expression of love shared between two people, more formally within the bonds of marriage but certainly it should be the culmination of time spent understanding the other person, sharing your life with them and supporting them through their's. Whilst I'm not saying stay in at night
or stop yourself having a good time -think carefully about how you choose to be with someone [his voice drops a little in volume and he looks down]...lust... is essentially greed in another form...instant gratification can leave you both feeling hollow.
[He looks up as if remembering where he is and speaks a little more jovially]And after all, God gave us a conscience - that can certainly be a right pain when you act against it!

[As he speaks, the door clicks shut behind him, he turns around too late to see who had been listening]

FK:[laughing]Oh...must 'ave frightened them off...I often get that!

[Outside JP leans against the door and sighs heavily as though letting out the breath he had been holding while Kieron spoke. He can still hear Kieron's deep, warm voice from inside and the sound flips his stomach. "Hollow"? He knew exactly how that felt.

Later as Kieron leaves the Union he is surprised to see JP waiting with an anxious expression.]

JP:[hesitantly]Kieron...can I have a word?
K:[looking away from him]You've already said enough haven't you? I know where I stand-I don't need telling again John Paul.
JP:No, it's not that.
[Kieron doesn't offer any encouragement and JP flounders for a minute unsure of how to continue.]
JP:Look...can we talk somewhere... I mean not in the street. Do you fancy a pint?
K:[shaking his head, looking into JP's eyes]I'm not sure I can do this.
JP:Please. I'm sorry about before... I just need to talk to you.
[Kieron looks at him for a moment longer raising his eyebrows as if to ask why. For JP the world stops for a second as he looks back into that dark intensity.His lips part slightly then he's suddenly aware of his heart beating.He pulls himself out of it.]
JP:A quick drink? Please.
Kieron:[quietly]OK.

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[A fairly quiet late afternoon in The Dog, Kris is slowly wiping down the top of the bar as JP walks in. He looks up with a wry grin on his face.]

Kris: Well, look who it is - the resident heart breaker. Do you know how that man looked when you walked off?

[JP throws Kris a serious look just as Kieron enters the bar behind him. Kris's face grimaces into an apology then assumes a breezy smile...]

Kris: Right gents, what can I get you?
JP:[with a warning tone at Kris, as Kieron ignores them both and moves to sit at a quiet table for two in the corner]Two pints thanks.
Kris:[whispering]Bloody hell - what's brought this on? This afternoon it was all you could do to get away fast enough.
JP:[as he lifts the pints]Not now Kris, leave it eh?

[Kris holds up his hands in a gesture of submission and moves off to sort the stocks throwing an interested backwards glance as he does so. JP moves towards Kieron and puts the pints down. He sits with his back to Kris, directly opposite Kieron.]

K:[neutral tone, not looking up to meet JP's eye] Thanks.
JP:Thanks for agreeing to this.
[A long pause as they both look awkward]
JP:I was there you know.
K:What?
JP:I was there...at the meeting.
K:The mystery visitor...
Jp:Yeh...Sorry...it didn't feel right sitting down.
K:[dismissive]Of course not.
JP:Look...I heard what you said...about relationships...
K:[bitter]Don't listen to me. What do I know? I'm just a priest.
JP:Kieron please. I agree with what you said.
K:[looks up with hurt in his eyes]Which bit was that exactly? About the cheap beer?
JP:[serious]No...no...about the hollow feeling.
K:[can't help himself]You'd know all about that wouldn't you? Because you "don't fall in love with every guy you sleep with".
JP:[looking down, ashamed] I know I said that and it was true, I had never felt about anyone the way I'd felt about Craig.
K:I was wondering when his name would come up.
JP:[getting more frustrated by Kieron's indifference]I loved him...completely...there was nothing I could do about it. However badly he treated me, whatever he did or said, I had to go back to him. I faced everything this place could throw at me because I knew, at some point, he'd knock on that door, kiss me and the world would become ours...even if for a few hours...for a night if I was lucky. He didn't want me to plan ahead or think things through. As much as I was desperate for him to do so...he didn't want me to be an adult about everything...it was like a wonderful game...do you understand?
[K nods slightly to show JP that he is trying to listen.]
JP:[more quietly, looking down at his pint as he touches the glass as he speaks]With you, it's different. You know who you are...how to be with people...all kinds of people. When you look at me, its not someone I grew up with, its a man looking at me - with expectations and hopes. Someone who is willing to risk everything to tell me they want to be with me...that is so frightening...that responsibility. When we have so much to lose if people found out, how can I take that risk if what I feel for you doesn't last?
K:[speaks after so long listening to JP]What you feel for me?
JP:[intensely leaning forward]When you look at me, for the first time, I feel safe. I want to be near you, have your arms around me, smell the warmth of your skin and kiss you Kieron. I want to kiss you so much.
K:[hesitant, not quite willing to trust this again]But?
JP:What if it doesn't last? What if I can't cope with it again? I can't mess you around like that.
K:Well thanks John Paul...for all of that. No...you're right you weren't using me...it was more like an experiment wasn't it? "Let's see if we can care again after the last time"experiment. Well...you need to be sure...not of the outcome, no-one can guarantee love...but of the willingness to try. If it escaped your notice I slept with you because I love you. I wanted you yes, of course I did, you are so beautiful...but I love you. I have watched you care about your family, be hurt when people treat you badly, be jealous when you think you're not loved. Well here I am telling you that you are! If you want that, you know where to find me!

[Kieron stands up, takes a last, longing look at JP and leaves the bar. Jp watches him leave and his eyes fill with tears which are soon wiped away as he notices Kris moving quickly towards him.]

Kris:Well? [then notices JP's upset] Are you OK? What was it...the priest doesn't want to know?
JP:I've really messed up Kris.

[Kris sits next to JP and puts a hand on his arm]

Kris: He loves you, you know that. In fact you'd be blind and stupid not to have worked that one out...so whatever you think is irreversible, I think you still have a chance to put it right.
JP:[looks up, a little reassured]Do you think so?
K:God yes...If being a bisexual cross-dresser has taught me anything, its being able to read behind the lines if you know what I mean..
JP:[touches Kris's hand on his arm]Thanks Kris.
[Kris glances down at JP's hand, Jp misses the brief wave of melancholy that passes over Kris's face]

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Continued...

Kris:[slight shake of the head to clear the image that has been tormenting him. He picks up the empty glasses.]Look mate, why don't I buy you another one of these...I'll ask Jack to watch the bar for 10 minutes and I'll be all yours if you want to talk...no clever lines from me I promise.
JP:[nods]Yeh, OK.

[Kris goes back to the bar, leans through into the house and has a word with Jack. He stands pouring JP's pint noticing his friend's slumped shoulders and thinks Kieron is a lucky man to inspire that much of a reaction.]

Kris:Here you go...never known a situation where a drink doesn't offer a fresh perspective...[thinks and pulls a wry face]...not always a better perspective it has to be said but, in this case, it can't get much worse.
JP:[sarcastically]Thanks for the encouragement.
Kris: Ah come on now, I'm just trying to lighten the mood a little.
JP:[serious]What am I going to do Kris?
Kris:John Paul, he loves you and you look like the world is about to end-you obviously care about the guy so can't you just go for it?
JP:[snaps back]For what? Hiding in corners, waiting till everyone goes out before we can even touch each other, not allowed to look too long in his direction in case anyone notices the local gay boy fancies the priest. What kind of life is that?
Kris:[joking]It might add a thrill to the proceedings.
JP:Oh come on Kris...you know I've been through all that before and I can't do it again. I want to walk down that street holding his hand, letting everyone know how we feel and that we're not ashamed.
Kris:Sweetheart, this isn't the gay village...you walk down the street holding hands and you'll probably end up in the hospital...regardless of the whole "priest" complication.
JP:You manage it...
Kris:Yes but I'm like a pantomime dame, I put myself out there so that no-one dares take the piss.But you..you threaten them because you could be them.
JP:What? Homophobic and narrow minded.
Kris:No...a true blooded man - who likes football and beer, who has male mates and likes a laugh...
JP:Except,at the end of a evening, I might be kissing one of those mates!
Kris:I should be so lucky!
JP:[looks at him enquiringly then laughs]Shut up!
Kris:[slight pause as he feels unnerved by what he almost let slip; recovers to refocus on the subject] Look, I don't think Kieron wants to go all "YMCA" yet but I do think he's serious. When he spoke to me after "it" happened, he never blamed you, not for one minute. You have just admitted how you feel about him so isn't it worth trying to see if there's anything long term there. Don't let darling Craig ruin the rest of your life.
JPon't talk about Craig like that.
Kris:Ok..Ok...I won't go there but you don't see him inundating you with texts or rushing back to sweep you in his arms.

[JP drops his head, hurt that Kris is saying what he has been thinking for the last few months]

Kris;John Paul I'm sorry...I'm just trying to say that Kieron is here, in the flesh and God what flesh! He's here ready to help Michaela, ready to support Myra and he even coped with loving in the midst of the MCQueen clan though that may have had more to do with you wandering around half dressed in the morning.
JP:[defensive]I don't!
Kris:[laughs]Sorry - my fantasy! Just give the man a chance-be open with him, say its a trial to see if its gonna work and if it does, you would need to be with him completely. That would put the ball in his court, so to speak.

[Jack is gesturing to Kris that he needs to get back to the bar.]

Kris:I'd better get back to work. Just remember if you need a shoulder to cry on, I offer a good rate.
JP:[half smiling]I bet you do! [More resolutely] Thanks Kris. I need to talk to Kieron now.

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[JP stands in the car park of a nondescript building. It has been a long time since he has stood outside this particular place-not that the featureless red brick with the bright metallic sign reading "St Joseph's" has altered in any way. He wonders for a minute how Myra manages to feel close to God in a place that reminds him of a 70's community hall. He guesses that is it - "community"- being with people who feel the same way, who look out for each other. He knows that if any of those inside had an inkling as to why he is here they would soon feel the same way about him and it wouldn't be good. He slips quietly in at the back of the service.

A small thanks to God that this mid-week mass is one Myra usually misses, crosses his mind. Then he notices Kieron at the altar celebrating the mass and sipping from the chalice. For a moment he loses his courage - the man before him looks so composed and respected. As the congregation move forward and wait patiently to taste the body of Christ given for them, JP can't help but remember what it felt like to run his hands through that dark hair of the man who bows his head before them.

With a jolt he realizes that if Kieron looks up, he will see him there as the devout walking to the altar rail leave him exposed. He sinks lower down onto his metallic framed chair - God why couldn't they even have pews to hide behind. He waits out the rest of the service with a mind churning with images of a decidedly more earthly nature.

Eventually as the last of the old ladies, who seem strangely eager to bend the handsome Father's ear at the end of the service, wander out chatting about flower rotas and local gossip, Kieron moves off into the vestry. JP, busy pretending to be interested in the church sponsored African mission details stuck in the entrance hall, drops the act and moves back into the aisle. He knows exactly where the vestry door is - three years as an altar boy ensured that. Michaela isn't the only one to have suffered Myra's pious hopes for her children.

He pauses for a second with an anxious expression then knocks quietly.]

K:Come in.

[JP's heart pounds as he opens the door. Kieron has his back to the door as he folds his vestments away, he turns and stops in shock, open mouthed.]

JP:I...I'm sorry for startling you.
K:What? Why? I mean - what are you doing here?
JP:I needed to see you.
K:What? Here?
JP:It couldn't wait.
K:John Paul, this really isn't the place.Anyone could just...
JP:[interrupting]Please...let me explain. I know its not the best place but I have to tell you right now - I...I've missed you so much. It's not just your touch -I miss everything about us. Please Kieron, I want to try...
K:[still recovering from the shock of seeing the face he loves in this environment, vents his frustration] Do you have any idea how inappropriate this conversation is in this place? Do you? Or is this all about you again John Paul?
JP:Please hear me out!
K:I can't, not here! I'm not going to ruin my standing as a priest in this community for you to express you teen angst all over again.
JP:[angered by Kieron's patronising tone]That is not fair and you know it! It took a lot for me to come here today. I just want to tell you that you are right and you make me feel like an embarrassment - already! Maybe this was a mistake.

[JP turns to open the door, as Kieron puts a hand on his arm.]

K:Stop! I'm sorry. Look...wait for me outside and I'll be out in a few minutes...please.
JP:[looking down]OK

[Minutes later JP is leaning against the wall at the side of "St.Joseph's" as Kieron comes through the door usually used by the playgroup and Sunday School.]

K:Thanks for waiting. I'm sorry about in there-it was a shock. [half-laughs] Didn't think you were a one for church?
JP:I'm not, unless there's a very good reason.
K:[his heart beating faster]And?
JP:[looking up straight into his eyes]You know the answer Kieron. I do want you to love me...because...because I love you too. It isn't like before, with Craig, but if not being able to get someone out of your mind, feeling like life's a waste of time without them near you and missing evertything about them means love, then I'm in love. Please... can we try?

{As he speaks, he moves imperceptibly closer to Kieron who watches him, hypnotised, throughout these words. Then smiling, Kieron slips a hand around JP's waist and pulls his body closer.]

K:[whispers with a broken, husky voice]Yeh...let's try.
JP:[smiling, whispers]Someone might see...
K:Let them [he slides his hand up to John Paul's head and kisses him playfully biting his lip as he does so. JP kisses him back greedily. They pull away from each other breathing heavily.]
JP:[smiling]Well-where do we go from here?
K:[grinning back]Niall's out.

He he! Loving this one - but I bet Niall's not out at all!!!