Hello all I'm Scripter as most of you may know (I'm using a new account because I can't remember my other username, or the email address I used, hope the lovely mods don't mind )

Here's a story from me, and I swear I'm gonna stick with it I've written 3-4 chapters so far, and hope to get some comments be nice hehe.

so here's chapter one!

Chapter 1 - Prologue

Two months...
Almost two whole months...

It'd been nearly two whole months since that day they'd departed, one leaving for basically another country, and another turning his back on his lover, and facing a lonely trip back to Hollyoaks Village.

Now both lonely, and in two different countries, and trying to move on. John-Paul was quite successful, however losing his friends was no consolation to losing the love of his life, he'd missed his lover so much, and kept trying to bury his thoughts. But every time he felt he'd succeeded, something would cloud his mind...someone...

Hannah & Sarah were no longer speaking to John-Paul, for their own personal reasons of course, Sarah felt betrayed by John-Paul for stealing her boyfriend, and the trick of her walking in on the two lovers, had shocked her deeply. Hannah, still had her own reasons, still pining for John-Paul, but at the same time, hating him, he'd hurt Sarah, and he'd hurt Hannah, she still found it hard to move on...

Another friend of the group however, Nancy, was more like a neutral player in the whole game. She neither sided with John-Paul, or with Sarah & Hannah, she understood John-Paul & Craig's situation, and understood how Craig was developed those feelings for his best mate...

So our story begins...

Here's chapter 2, I've used the song Heaven (DJ SAMMY - slow version) for the song reference, it made me cry, but hey I'm a soppy guy hehe, enjoy Chapter 2!

Chapter 2 – Without You Here (John-Paul's View)

There was only you and me...we were young and wild, and free...

We've been down that road before...it's over now...

“You and me...that's what it should be like eh?” John-Paul lay on his bed, gently listening to his stereo, Chester FM on low volume, “But it is over...your there, and I'm here, what a cliché eh?” John-Paul mused.

You keep me coming back for moo-re...

“That you did, why is this song so relevent to what's happened” John-Paul chuckled to himself lightly, “how songs relate to a lot of things that have happened, good times and bad ones”.

Baby you're all that I want, when youre lying here in my arms...

I'm finding it hard to believe ... we're in heaven ...

Love is all that I need...

“We could have been in heaven couldn't we Craig? Our own little safe haven away from trouble...but no, you couldn't do that one thing for me, you couldn't kiss me” John-Paul could feel himself tensing up, “Come on...it's only a song, stupid DJ...always playing songs that make me wanna cry...” he chuckled to himself again, “bloody men...you can't live with 'em, but you can't live without HIM”.

Once in your life, you find someone...who will turn your world around, pick you up when you're feeling down...

Now nothing can change what you mean to me, there's a lot that I could say...just hold me now

“You couldn't even do that could you? You couldn't bring yourself to hold me, when I needed you the most...” John-Paul jumped up and switched his stereo, he'd had enough of stupid songs that made him emotional beyond hope.

John-Paul opened his door slowly, and hoped that no-one was around to hassle to him, he couldn't be doing with Mercedes constant on slaught, or Michaela's attitude, and how she's settling into sixth form life, nor could he deal with his mother, Myra had been molly coddling him for some time, just wanting her son to be happy, but then again, no one could do that for him right now. The coast was clear, and he bounded his way downstairs, nearly falling down them at the speed he was going!

“Right I think some food is in order...take my mind off things, and watch a bit of tele” he rubbed his hands together, and walked into the kitchen, opening the freezer, and seeing a pizza, which to him had his name all over it, “perfect!” He ripped open the box, and tore off the plastic sheet covering his priced food, that would soon be making its way down his gullet, and thus he shoved it in the oven, setting the temperature, and waiting.

Before he could think of his next move, the door went, “Ooh who's that...I really don't wanna answer the stupid thing!” John-Paul thought, “it could be important though” he thought, the last time John-Paul didn't open the door, it was a delivery for his mum, and she wasn't too pleased of having to wait another a few days for a parcel to be re-delivered, so he decided against his judgement, and ran for the door.

He unlocked the door, and to his surprise, a dark haired person stood under the porch...

Hope it begins soon! Love McDean fics!!!

I look forward to the next chapter

You were so quick it was there as my last post posted!

Great 2nd chapter though

Yay, a new story from you! Can't wait to see if it is actually Craigy.

this is great

Awww thanks for the comments guys!

Should I post chapter 3? do you want to know who's at the door lol

Get posting!!!

Loving it so far!!!

Scared I might be mobbed next lol...

here's chapter 3!

Chapter 3 – Unexpected Guest!

The dark haired person turned out to be none other than, no, not that person I'm afraid, and this came as a shock to John-Paul, for it was Nancy Hayton that stood under his porch, in his doorway, two bags, that had the familiar clank of alcohol...

“Right, I think we should talk, and I've brought some peace offerings if you're interested” Nancy grinned, seemingly forgetting about the history about John-Paul and Sarah, and Nancy being Sarah's friend, but here Nancy stood in John-Paul's doorway, being all friendly, “Nance...um, what are you doing here? I thought you all hated me, for ya know...” John-Paul trailed off, letting the sentiment finish it self off. “Listen John-Paul, I'm not gonna say I'm happy with what's happened, but I'm still your friend, and I like you, and I also liked Craig too, you two were like a couple anyway before everything came to blows!” Nancy giggled, and smiled to John-Paul “Anyway, I bring drink, and snacks, and do I smell pizza cooking? You knew I was coming round didn't you?!” John-Paul simply laughed out loud, “No Nance, I didn't have a clue, but what a coincidence eh? And drink will go perfectly with ...our.... pizza” John-Paul stepped aside, and let Nancy through, she stomped in the living area of the McQueens house, and dropped her bags on the sofa, “they were heavy...you could of given me a helping hand there McQueen!” Nancy sat down and put her feet up, just like she would at her own house.

John-Paul was still baffled as to why Nancy was here, as far as he knew, all his friends, well ex-friends, all hated him, and they all felt betrayed by him and Craig's secret relationship. But here was Nancy, in his living room, making herself at home.

“So when's this pizza gonna be ready, because I am starving!” Nancy turned to John-Paul who was stood behind her, still contemplating what she was doing here. “John-Paul!” Nancy shouted, John-Paul shaked out of his thoughts, “Sorry Nancy, um...ten minutes, will you survive that long?” John-Paul joked, and sat down in the seat to the side of the sofa, “Well then, that gives us a little time to chat, and catch up, and see how you're doing” Nancy replied with ease.

John-Paul felt relaxed in Nancy's company, and so he should, it was the first friendly face he'd encountered out of his house in a few months. He felt he could open up to Nancy, and she gave off this feeling that she'd be willing to listen, plus she would never give up the chance on some free gossip.

“Well what do you wanna know?” John-Paul asked, musing his eyebrow, he was unsure of where to start, or what Nancy wanted to talk about, “How are you holding up? I know its been a couple of months almost since he went, but it looks like your still upset” Nancy asked softly, “Understatement of the century, every time I feel that I've forgotten about him. Something reminds me of our time together, this whole village does, everywhere I go, I see Craig, I see me, I see me and Craig, do you know what I mean?” John-Paul replied to his listener. “I do, it's kind of like Becca, I still see her everywhere around the village, not in a physical sense of course, but a lot of places remind me of her” John-Paul simply nodded.

“God I miss him, but he couldn't do that one thing for me could he? He couldn't kiss me in public...is that nasty of me?” John-Paul asked lightly, “I mean I wished I'd never asked him really, we'd be in Dublin now, but would he be normal with me? Would he kiss me, hold me in public? See there I go again, thinking!” John-Paul laughed loudly, but with a nervous and upset stance, which Nancy picked up on, “John-Paul, maybe, just maybe, do you think that he wasn't ready for a full on public snog, I know you have a right to, just like everyone else, but maybe he just wasn't ready to be pushed out of the closet to the world just yet”

John-Paul stood up, and took the bag which contained the alcohol, and placed the bottle of vodka on the table. “You want a drink?” he asked, trying to change the subject quickly, he honestly didn't have an answer for Nancy's question, “Yeah, but there's use trying to avoid the topic McQueen! I'm gonna get it out of you yet, and yes your gonna blub like a new born baby, but I'm here, you'll probably end up making me blub aswell, so it's not all bad, we have our alcohol to drown our sorrows in don't we” she smiled, which quickly turned into a grin, John-Paul returned the grin, and quickly went in to the kitchen, to the cupboard which held the two glasses he wanted, and he returned to the living area. He was ready for the questions, and the blubbing, he'd got that down to a Tee already, he'd done enough crying in the last two months to last him a lifetime, so a little more wouldn't hurt, would it?

Ok thought it might be too early for Craigy!!
Am liking JP and Nancy - the girls got a brain and she actually wears clothes LOL!!!

I knew it wouldn't be Craig returning - too soon! But at least we know that someway, somehow, they will be reunited once more. Loved Nancy being the bigger man and showing up.

Amazing start there Shaney, excellently written and very moving, loving Nancy already

Thanks for the comments everyone! I try my best here hehe. and your reward for the comments? Another chapter! (my aren't I doing well today :P) a bit short, but hey, theres so much more to come!

Chapter 4 – The friend and listener.

It'd been well over half an hour since John-Paul started talking to Nancy about his problems, his feelings, and in that space of time, he'd only managed just a few tears. They'd had their pizza, which Nancy had most of, she could eat a horse if John-Paul had cooked one! Nancy understood completely her friends misfortunes and feelings, she knew what he was going through, it was kind of like losing someone, but in this Craig was mere miles away, but Becca, she was far far away, and never going to return.

“Jeez, look at me, crying in front of you like this, I feel like a complete pill*ck” John-Paul sniffled, and got a laugh through. “Hey come here, I don't think you've had anyone to talk too, and in a way I'm glad, now come here you sausage!” Nancy held her arms out, and John-Paul got up from his own seat, and sat next to his friend on the sofa, and Nancy took him into her arms and cuddled him. “Never thought it'd be me you'd pour your soul out too over what's happened” Nancy giggled, and John-Paul stifled a small giggle too. “Thing's can surprise you can't they eh? You won't tell Sarah and Hannah any of this will you? They hate me enough as it is already, without them knowing I'm pining after Craig, and rubbing their faces in it, Sarah's mainly” John-Paul mumbled, he eventually sat up, and faced Nancy.

“Thanks for everything you know, I really appreciate you coming round, and giving me a chance to explain stuff...and well cry on your shoulder” John-Paul managed a cheeky grin, and felt himself feeling better, if only a little. “Listen, I won't say a word, what we talk about stays in these four walls, and doesn't go beyond that. And it's good that cheeky smile coming back on your face, it needs to be shown more, still, there's plenty of alcohol left, and lets call it a celebration of your smile now!” Nancy smiled manically, pouring herself a big shot of vodka, “Don't you think you should go easy?” John-Paul said seriously, but then broke out into an equally mad grin, “there is two of us you know!”.

Meanwhile, another boy was drinking, alone this time though, feeling alone, in the emptyness of his flat, no lover, no boyfriend, no friend to talk about his problems, his thoughts, his feelings with. Just himself, many miles away from John-Paul...

Aww, it's great that these two are friends again... but poor Craigy... drinking alone. Poor pet!

ah poor craig, don't torture him too much shaney

aww. its craigy isnt it

poor small boy

anyway, this is brill

enjoying this, nice to see nancy being more herself and a real mate

Here's chapter 5-PART 1...a little...TEASER for you! hehe. I'll post the other part very soon

Chapter 5-PART 1 – Struggling...

Here sat a boy, broken, alone and drunk. No boyfriend, no lover, no companion, he's all alone. Since being left by John-Paul he has been forced to move on, he's had to forget all those developing feelings, all that passion, all that stolen passion.

But now...

“No more John-Paul...No more anything...why can't I move on!?” the boy said out aloud, pouring himself another shot of his half empty bottle of whiskey into a shot glass.

The boy hadn't heard from John-Paul since the day they both said they're good boys, or rather since they both walked away, the boy that sat now did so with some hesitation, but now, nothing. Empty-ness is what remains in the boys heart...

But for now, he had to try and move on, and forget all about John-Paul...the boys name?

You'll have to wait and see...

Amazing part there hun very well written

Sarah, have you been waiting for me lol!

Who's the boy?...hmmmmmmmm...

always waiting for you hun lol youre lovely as is this fic so bring more soon

oh, wait, could this be spike?

or is it craig

spike or craig