I love love love love love love love love love love love love this fic

You're an amazing writer.

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Kris' POV

For the next few hours, I cooked us a meal and we watched a film together. Some soppy romantic comedy but Jess always did love them, so I didn't argue. I quite enjoyed snuggling up together on the sofa, after all this time, it was a change from what i've done for the last few years. All I did back home was get up, go to work, come home, and go to bed. I didn't have energy to do anything else, it was ripped from me from the amount of times i'd find myself getting upset. I'd lost the two most important people in my life, and coming back here it meant I had to chance to get Jess back. I truly believe we can get through this together, as long as we have each other.

After the movie finished, I started to talk to her, but I got no reply. As I carefully peered down, I noticed that she had fallen asleep on me. Smiling slightly at the sight of her sleeping, I remove my arms from around her waist and lift her up to take her into the bedroom, which was proved to be tricky due to my things lying around. I finally got to the bed, and gently lay her down being careful not to wake her.

"Kris?"
"Sorry sweetie, was trying not to wake you."
"What happened to the film?" She asks, rubbing her eyes.
"You missed half of it." I laugh gently, stroking the hair from her eyes. "You fell asleep."
"Sorry."
"Nah it's ok, you must be shattered. It's been a long day."
"Yeah...I take it Zoe did stay out afterall then?"
"Yep. I had no idea she was still going with Darren. What's he like now, or shouldn't I ask?"
"He's just...Darren, I suppose." She replies, pulling the sheets around her more. "But he's good for her, she's happy."
"Good."

"What time is it?"
"Er..." I pause to look at my watch. "Gone twelve.."
"Come and lie down with me?"

Patting the empty space in bed next to her, she indicates where she wants me to lie. Pulling off my jeans and shirt, I search through my bag looking for a pair of shorts. I don't know how uncomfortable she would be if I were to sleep in nothing but my boxers, and I don't want to push things with her as I know it's difficult for us both. However after a few minutes of searching, Jess tells me she doesn't mind at all and she's touched at how much i'm thinking of her feelings before I go and do something. I finally slip into bed with her, on the right side as that has always been the side of the bed where I slept.

"Thanks for this." She whispers, gently pressing her lips to mine.
"For what?"
"Just being here, it means a lot to me. I've not really coped without you..."
"I haven't either. I thought about you every minute of everyday you know?"
"Kris?" She whispers sadly, holding me tighter. "Promise me something.."
"Sure, go ahead."
"Promise me this is it now? That we're together now and we're always going to be. Promise me you won't go anywhere."

I stroke her cheek gently and place a loving kiss on her lips before pulling back to answer.

"I promise. I don't intend on ever going anywhere again, and if I do happen to end up somewhere else then you're coming with me. I'm not going anywhere without you, Jess."

Her face breaks into a huge smile and she cuddles back up to me, head on my chest just like it's always been when we've been together. Wrapping both arms around her tightly, I let my eyes close over and we soon fall alseep together.

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"Thanks for this." She whispers, gently pressing her lips to mine.
"For what?"
"Just being here, it means a lot to me. I've not really coped without you..."
"I haven't either. I thought about you every minute of everyday you know?"

Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww that was all so sweet
I just love how they are slowly getting their relationship back on track and that whole promise thing was lovely.
Kris is being so caring and considerate towards Jess's feelings and it just makes him even more lovely (if thats possible lol)

Love it I really do, cant wait for the next part fab hun
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Amazing. I'm glad they've got one another now.

Fabby

Jess' POV

I've been awake for a few minutes, and as soon as I opened my eyes this morning I was staring straight at Kris. As soon as I know he's here, and that I haven't woke up alone like the last few years, I feel more relaxed. I never had someone to cuddle up to at night and that was partly my fault because I was the one who made Kris leave, however as soon as he was gone I realised I would struggle.

It's only when I feel him kiss my cheek, that I know he's awake.

"Morning."
"Hey, you sleep ok?" He asks.
"Not bad, better than I have done before.."
"Good." He pauses and stares at me. "Have you been crying?"
"No." I lie, because tears did come to my eyes this morning.
"It's ok you know? You ain't alone anymore Jess, you can tell me anything. You do know that don't you?"
"Of course I do."
"Well tell me..." He whispers, kissing the back of my hand. "...Zoe told me about you being in hospital."

I feel myself sit up in shock, it's one thing I don't like to think about never mind talk about. I'm not angry with Zoe for telling him, actually i'm surprised she never did it sooner.

"She did?" I ask nervously.
"The day I came back...I didn't want to bring it up straight away...what were you thinking, Jess?"
"It was just a tough time, things never got better..." I sob quietly. "..They only got worse, and I didn't want to be here..."
"You should have came to me."
"What after everything?"
"Especially after everything. I was always waiting for you to show up, or call me saying you needed me...but you never did."
"I didn't think you'd want to know..."
"I would have been here. First flight over and I would have been here, I just wish Zoe told me sooner."
"I told her not to, I wasn't sure how you'd react and I didn't want to hurt you anymore than I had already."
"Jess.." He whispers, pulling me close to him. "..I'm always here for you and that ain't ever going to change, ok?"

I lie in his arms for a few minutes, staying in complete silence as he strokes my hair lovingly. After that little conversation I feel much better about myself as I now know that he knows about it. I won't have to hide it from him or anything. I'm so touched at how much he still cares for me even now, I know feelings can't just go away with a click of the finger but the fact that Kris waited for me and the fact that he didn't have anyone else just proves to me how special he actually is.

After a few more minutes we get ready together and go into the kitchen where Kris cooks breakfast, he's becoming too good at this recently. After cooking, eating and washing up, Kris goes for a shower leaving me in the front room. However, Zoe soon strolls through the door and takes a seat.

"Hey, good night?"
"Yeah, it was nice." She replies, pouring herself a drink. "How did you and Kris get on? And where is he by the way?"
"In the shower..." I laugh as she seemed a little panicked. "...he stayed with me last night."
"Good, so anything happen or was it just for comfort?"
"Nothing serious happened, but we kissed and well I asked him to stay."
"Well i'm glad he did, you two just need to be around each other right now..."
"No Zo, you don't understand.." I pause for a few seconds. "..I've asked him to move back in."
"Well that's even better!"
"You serious? You're ok about it?"
"Of course I am.You need him, he needs you so it just makes sense don't it?" She hugs me.

"What's this, group hug?" Kris says, appearing from the bathroom.
"I've just heard you're staying, i'm really happy you'll be around again." Zoe hugs him. "Wouldn't hurt to put clothes on.."
"Oh haha, anyway i've never had any complaints."

As Kris wanders off into the bedroom, Zoe turns to me and laughs.

"He's still full of himself then..."
"He's just confident." I pause and look at her seriously. "He said you told him about me..."
"Jess...i'm sorry..but I just thought..."
"Zo it's ok. I was thinking about telling him anyway. You just saved me the hard part of telling him in the first place."
"How was he?"

"Supportive. I'm so glad he's here because without him I was falling to pieces...now he's back I feel like I don't have to pretend anymore. I can tell him anything, and no matter how bad it was he'd be there for me. I know how tough this has been for us and I feel so stupid for making him go...but i'm not making the same mistake twice, we need to get through this together and as long as i've got him, I think i'll be ok."

"You'll be more than ok. You seem more relaxed around him, now he's here."
"Cos I know I don't have to be scared of anything, he'll protect me like he always has."
"You've never stopped loving him have you?" She asks, with a slight smile.
"Not for a second. No matter how much I tried to, I couldn't."

glad things are starting to gte better for kris and jess!
hoping to read more soon

Amazing, they're so sweet.

OK I cant remember what my actual comment from this was coz of the ordeal we've had in trying to get it back LOL but i know I LOVED it

oh and i'm glad Jess and Kris spoke about what Jess did to herself

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Fab

BUMP!!

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anymore soon?
i hope so its great

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Originally posted by Wcnc14:
anymore soon?
i hope so its great

Tomorrow

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Kris' POV

It's the end of the week and over the weekend, Jess and I spent all our time together. I knew it would be good for us and I was right, we seem that little bit closer again. I know things can't go back to how they were straight away but we're making progress and even if it is slowly, I couldn't care. I'm not stupid, I knew I couldn't just walk back into her life and pick up where we left off and to be honest i'm not sure i'd really want that to happen. Over the weekend she's really opened up to me, and told me how hard things got for her. How one minute she'd be ok but the next she'd completely break down and crumble. She doesn't have to be like that again, not while i'm around. I want to look after her, be there when she's upset and pull her through this with me, and I know if I want to get passed this then I need Jess with me.It's no good being alone.

"Are you sure you'll be ok today?"
"I think so.." She replies, drinking her morning coffee. "..It's my day to go back."
"But if you aren't feeling up to it, i'll call in and tell them. You don't want to rush back.."
"Kris, i'm fine. I'll cope." She says.
"I don't want you just to cope. I want you to be sure that you are ready to go back to work..."
"And I am sure.It's not as if i'm stressing myself out, all i'm doing is writing for..."
"I know that. Look i'll let you go, but if anything happens or you don't feel up to it then call me?"
"Ok."
"Promise?"
"Yeah.." She smiles and places down her coffee. "I promise."
"Ok, well come here."

Walking over to her, I pull her into a hug and then pull back.

"I know you are only trying to protect me.."
"I just don't want you to do something too soon. I'm not getting at you though, ok?"
"I know that.." She says. "..And thankyou."
"Don't thank me, it's what I should have been doing all along. I do love you, you know that?"
"Course I do. I still love you too and I know sometimes I haven't always shown it but it's true."

For a few seconds we share a long loving kiss, only we brake apart when Jess claims that she can't be late. I ask if she wants me to walk her to work but she says she's going to take the car so I won't need to. For the first hour I worry about her and how she's settling back in, I actually sit with the phone next to me waiting on a call, but after a while and I don't get one I relax a little. She must be ok.

After a few hours Zoe and Darren return from shopping. I'm surprised to see Darren as the last time we met was over four years ago now. It seems awkward at first, and i'm not quite sure how to break the silence.

"Kris, Zoe said you were back. How are you coping?" Thankfully he says something first.
"Better for being here."
"Well it's nice to have you back, it's obvious Jess needed you."
"Thanks." I say, almost surprised at how he is acting with me.

"Hey, did Jess get off ok?" Zoe asks, appearing from her room.
"Er, yeah she said she was ready to go back so I couldn't really stop her."
"She'll be fine..."
"Yeah?" I snap, feeling a little stressed. "And what if she isn't? What if something happens?"
"Nothing will..."
"That's what I thought while I was back home, but I come back to find that she tried to end her life and worst is I wasn't told!"
"Kris lay off ok?" Darren interupts. "Jess asked Zoe not to say anything."
"And what if she had died in there? What then Zo, would you have told me then?"
"Of course I would have..."
"Don't...I can't think about this right now, no matter what she said to you, I had a right to know."

Grabbing my jacket, I storm out needing some time on my own.

thats put a smile on my face
reading how protective and loving kris is towards jess
the writing is beautifull
hope there is mroe soon

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Originally posted by dillonsangel:
Loving this more than *ponders* RANGERS!

Meh! lol. It's easy to love anything more than Rangers

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She doesn't have to be like that again, not while i'm around. I want to look after her, be there when she's upset and pull her through this with me, and I know if I want to get passed this then I need Jess with me.It's no good being alone.

Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww he's the best!!
Its lovely how he wants to protect her so much and I feel really proud of Jess for taking the first step into going back to work..
When they both said they still loved eachtoher was VERY sweet

Nice to see Darren being polite to Kris and its nice to see how he portected Zoe too although I do understand where Kris was coming from and i understand that he would wonder if she would have told him if the worst had happend to Jess, its only natural for him to think like that but at the same time Zoe is Jess's friend too and she was being loyal to her

Ok why do I ramble so much?

Fantastic Hez like always look forward to more xxxxxxxxxx

Brill

Jess' POV

Feeling a lot better about myself as I finish my first day back at work, I go home in a better mood then I was in before.On entering the flat, I see Zoe and Darren sat on the sofa and Kris isn't about. Putting my things away I decide to question where he is. I half expected him to be here waiting for me to see how I got on.

"Where's Kris?"
"He sort of went out before..."
"Sort of?" I ask, confused. "What does that mean?"
"He just needed some time alone, he won't be long."
"Why, what happened? Has something went on while i've been away?"
"Jess..." Zoe whispers, coming over to me. "He's just worried about you, things might just be getting too much for him."
"Why didn't he tell me?" I sigh deeply. "He said we'd tell each other everything."
"I'm sure he'll explain everything when he comes back later.." She pauses. "..Don't worry Jess, he is coming back."

I know she can see right through me and now she can see how vulnerable I am. Even though I know Kris wouldn't leave me, I still have that nagging doubt that I can't get rid of.

"How long has he been away?"
"Few hours. He just walked off I couldn't stop him..."
"What if he doesn't...?" I stop as the front door closes, and I turn to see Kris standing. "Where have you been?"

"I just needed time to think." He replies softly. He seems so drained. "Can we talk?"
"You know we can."

Darren and Zoe very kindly leave us to it and go out for a while. We both sit on the sofa, and I don't really know what's going on, so I keep quiet.

"Sorry if I worried you.I really wanted to be here for when you got back from work..."
"Where did you go?"
"A walk." He adds simply. "I needed to clear my head."

"You can talk to me you know? I thought we were going to tell each other everything?"
"We will...we are..." He grips onto my hand. "..I suppose I just let myself get wound up too much. I was worried about you."
"I was fine, work was great and I feel better."
"I can't help but think about you in that hospital, and I knew nothing about what had happened."
"Hey, that wasn't your fault. I asked Zoe not to say anything.."
"I tried too."
"What?" I question, slightly confused. "Tried what?"
"Ending it all.Just like you Jess, I didn't think I wanted to be here. I mean what was the point? I'd lost the baby, i'd lost you...."
"Hey.."

Knowing this is difficult for him I pull him into my arms and cuddle him so tightly.

"...I tried Jess, I really did try." He sobs. "..But I never even had the guts to go through with it."

"Well that's a good thing ain't it? We've found each other again, and we can get through this Kris, I know we can."
"I'm sorry."

"You've got nothing to be sorry for." I say kissing his hair. "Don't you ever think that you are nothing, Kris.You are everything to me and I don't know what i'd be like if you weren't here right now.We've been through the worst possible thing anyone could be put through and look at us. We're here together..."

"I had to tell you, just to let you know..."
"I know, and it's ok." Pulling back from him, I gently stroke his cheek. "I love you, ok?"
"I love you too."
"Well then.." I kiss him softly. "...we've got each other now."

As I pull back, Kris wraps both arms around me and pull me back into another hug. Burying his head into my shoulder, he kisses my skin twice before sighing deeply and resting himself there.

Fab xx