Wow amazing

No way! That was brilliant! I need to know what happens now!

I've been told I'm allowed to have a shout at you Heather, but as I'm lovely I won't shout, I'll just be very stern (and you can blame Beckie cos she's been winding me up even more than I already was when I read this the other day, I just didn't know what to say then)

Firstly I'm glad that Jess didn't feel anything for Daniel while she was at the funerl especially after what he put her through and everything. Yeah she didn't need Kris to have a go at her, and I can see why he didn't want her to go but he should have supported her even though he felt she was in the wrong. Throwing the past back at her wasn't the smartest thing to do either. I do think that Jess is kind of right saying he's not entirely over what happened as well cos he's used it more than once, which is below the belt.
As for her not wanting to go back home well that's just... well wrong. I'm glad that Zoe sat her down and talked to her properly though, and made her see sense and want to go back, thats why we all love her I'm not happy that Kris wasn't there though, in fact thats a bit of an understatement really.
Whether or not he's only giving her a few days space he shouldn't have just upped and left. I thought Zakky might have talked hiim round.

So Heather...sort this out and SOON!!! this was the fic I came to when everything else was all sad and now its making me cry more than the others and not in a good way either.

I do love the fic though

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Once I heard the bedroom door closing and heard him downstairs, my eyes opened but all that came out of them was tears.

This is ALL wrong!!!!!

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"Oh no, no..." He shakes his head at me. "..Don't even think about that one, mate."
"What?"
"She's pregnant, Kris....she needs you..."

Exactly! Kris listen to Zak.....he cannot leave, he just cant!!!

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"You are." She says, rubbing my arm. "You're just being silly."
"Maybe..." I sigh. Was I just being silly though?

In a word..........YES!!!

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"And Kris?" What's happened to him? "Zo, just tell me....please, you have to tell me.."
"Zak said he's gone."

:mad; NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!
KRIS COME BACK!!!!!!!! WHERE IS HE?!?!?!

I'm- I- *speechless*

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Amazing!! i definately agree with lianne tho! Kris Get Back NOW!!!


xxx

Jess' POV

"Nothing." Zoe sighed and placed the phone down. I couldn't get hold of him at all, I even went upstairs to see if he'd taken anything and my heart sunk when I noticed he had. He didn't take much but he took enough to suggest that he was going away...how could he? How could he just go off and leave me like this? Pregnant with his baby, he knows I need him...and Olivia and Jayden, they'll obviously ask questions, wanting to know where their Daddy is...what am I supposed to say to them? Didn't he care that he was leaving all this behind him?

"Why would he does this Zo?" I put my head in my hands again, I don't think I can cry anymore. I've already cried enough. "It's not him, he wouldn't just run off and leave us..."

"We'll find him."

"How can we find him?" I sobbed, I knew she was trying to make me feel better but the only thing that I wanted was for him to come back. I needed him after today, I needed him to just tell me that what happened with us last night really didn't matter. I went today and I thought it was over but how can it be over when he's gone? "He's not even answering his phone!"

"How much did he take with him?"
"I...I don't know...enough...I wasn't..."
"Ok, what about his passport and things...did he take that?"
"I haven't looked." I whisper, looking across at her. She's just worried me even more.
"Do you want me to look?"
"It should be in the drawer...that's where I put them last night..."

I stay silent as Zoe walks over to the drawer, I hear her pull it open and as she does, I turn to her.

"It's here." She says, handing me it. "Atleast you know he can't go that far."
"Doesn't matter though does it? He's still gone. Just not as far as I first feared."
"Jess, Listen...maybe I could..."
"Are you sure he didn't tell Zak where he was going?"
"Positive, all I know is...he had a chat with Zak, then an hour or so later, he'd gone."

All that stuff he was going on about last night, not wanting me to go along today on my own...he said he was only looking out for me but if he cared that much why has he done this? I just can't find answers to the questions I have ringing in my head. I don't understand how he can be so protective one minute, wanting to look out for me and the next, he leaves me.

"I should be out looking for him..." It's all I can think about right now.
"No, you shouldn't."
"He could be anywhere!"
"So what do you want to do?" She asks and right now, I honestly don't know.
"Leave it, leave him..."
"What?"
"Well he's quick enough to leave me isn't he? I'm not chasing after him, it's exactly what he wants!"
"Are you sure?"
"Well there's not much else I can do is there? He's such a child...he just..."
"Annoys the hell out of you, right?"

"Sometimes..." I sob. "...but I still love him, I just don't know why he'd do this...leave like this..."

"Jess honey, try not to get upset...it's not good for the baby.."

"Kris not being here, that's not good for the baby too....he does things, things that make me feel better when it hurts...and it hurts now but he's not here is he?"

"If he knows what's good for him, he'll be back...I know he will....you've came through so much together and this isn't it...it's not over for you two...I know it's not."

"I've got another scan soon." It suddenly dawns on me. "What if he's not here to go with me?"
"He'll know you've got it coming up...he won't miss it.."
"I need him to be at this one...we're going to find out what we're having and..."
"Jess?...He won't miss it." She says and she seems certain on that. "I promise."
"If he's not back..will you come with me? I don't think I could go on my own..."

"You know I will..." She smiled and sat down. "But I know I won't have to because Kris will be back."

"I shouldn't have went today...that's what made him go..."

"No, Jess...don't say that...he knows full well it was your decision and he should have stood by you."

"That's all I wanted." I sigh, rubbing my eyes. "For him to stand by me, I knew he didn't like it but I thought he'd understand, in some strange sort of way. I thought he'd support me, even if he knew what I was doing was wrong.."

"I'm going to call him again, ok?"
"He won't pick up Zo.."
"It's worth a try isn't it?"

I watched on as Zoe got to his number and pressed dial but nothing, there was nothing and I knew at that point that he didn't want to talk to me right now and I didn't know what else I could do apart from sit here and wait.

Heather are you going to ever stop making me cry? This is fantastic but Kris can't leave her, he just can't! xxxx

Fab as ever.

But please brinbg Kris back

Pleasepleaseplease bring Kris back!!!
Fab as per usual! xD
Carry on soon?..x

Kris' POV

Two days. That's how long it's been since I left...or ran off because things got hard. I can't even explain myself, although I know Zoe's right. She's left messages on my phone, one calling me a pathetic, selfish idiot and I know it's all true. The reason i'm here is because I didn't agree with what Jess was doing. A better man would have stood by her, let her do what she wanted and even though I didn't approve, I should have been there for her but no, not me. Instead of staying I come here, to some hotel that isn't even worth the money i've paid to stay here.

I sit at the bar, twisting my wedding ring around my finger until someone snaps me out of my thoughts.

"You look like you could do with a drink."

I look up and see a young girl pulling up a stool next to mine, I rub my forehead and realise that i've already finished my latest. I suppose I could do with another.

"Same again." I smile and push the glass down the bar and she pushes it back up to me when it's been filled. "Drowning your sorrows or are you just enjoying a drink?"

"The first, what about you or shouldn't I ask?"

"A bit of both...so what have you got to be so depressed about? Broke a nail, lost a..."

"No!" She laughs. "What about you?"
"It's complicated, I wouldn't want to bore you with my problems."
"That usually means...'It's nothing to do with you, so butt out.'..."

"I just don't want to talk about it." I want to change the subject. "So, you never did tell me what's wrong."

"What's the cause of all our problems?"
"I dunno what..."

"Men!" She finished. "It's always men. They're all the same, every single one of them."

"Oh thanks!" I laughed into my glass but she was right wasn't she? I'd already proved that. I'm not different to any other man. I mean Jess always thought I was, she always said I was and she believed it but I bet she's not believing it so much right now and why should she believe it? The Wedding Vows, my wedding vows....I promised her things, I said i'd always be there and look at where I am now! How is this being there for her, how is this making sure that no harm ever comes to them? I'm hardly being the perfect husband or Father now am I? Maybe I never was...

"Are you alright?"
"Yeah fine, i'm just thinking that's all..."
"Thinking about what?"
"About getting another drink, that's what!" I lie, that's the last thing on my mind right now.

A few more hours pass before I decide that enough is enough. If I drink anymore, I know I won't get up later...and i've got alot to face up to. I pull myself up off the stool but slip and as I do I bump into this girl who's been talking to me all night...I don't even know what i'm doing...i'm not sure I can even see straight but I know when someone's kissing me and that someone isn't Jess. It doesn't matter how many drinks i've had, I know I couldn't be this stupid. As much as we aren't talking right now, I know I could never do this to her. I can never look at anyone else never mind do anything else.

"Woah, what's..." I pull away completely. "...that shouldn't have happened."
"I thought you..."

"You thought wrong! I'm married..." I show the ring. "...and I love her, I couldn't ever do this to her."

"If you love her so much, why are you here?" She asks, as I walk away.
"It's difficult right now."
"But surely if you love her like you say you do, you'd still be there working through it."
"I've been an idiot!" I say, walking further away. "I don't have to answer to you!"

I climb the stairs and just about remember where my room is, I start walking across the hallway to my door when I notice someone sitting outside it. I know who it is, I can tell from the other end of the hall....I think about turning round and going elsewhere but it's too late now...

"What the hell do you think you're playing at!?"
"Not now Zoe ok.." I sigh and walk over to her. "..what do you want?"
"What do you think I want? Jess is in bits because of you, how can you do that to her Kris!"
"How did you find me?" I push the door open and we both go inside.
"Never mind that, who's the girl at the bar?!"
"What girl?" I ask, acting daft.

"The one who you were locking lips with!" She yells angrily. "You are such a selfish, pathetic idiot do you know that? The kids are missing you like mad..."

"They are?" I shouldn't be surprised.
"Ofcourse they are and Jess...well..."
"How is she?"

"How do you think she is? Her Husband walked out on her, left her with two kids and she's pregnant!"

"I'm sorry..."

"Sorry?" She laughs. "You'll really have to do better than that this time, Kris. I mean, what do you think you're doing...you aren't single, you're married!"

"Don't you think I know that!" I shout back, pushing things out my way so I can sit down.

"No Kris, I don't think you do...if you knew that I wouldn't have caught you with your tongue down some girls throat!"

"You've got it all wrong, she kissed me!"
"That doesn't work with me, I know what I saw!"

"Yeah and I bet you rushed off right? If you stayed you would have seen me pull away and tell her that I wasn't interested because i'm married!"

"You may not be for much longer, she's thinking about it you know..and I don't blame her.."
"What?!" Well that certainly sobered me up. "She's thinking about a.."
"Divorce? Yeah she is!"
"She can't!"
"Why not? Because you say she can't is that it?"
"No!" It's not that at all. "Because I love her..."

And no matter how much of an idiot i've been lately, I know I love her. I couldn't just stop loving her...I tried that once before, all those years ago and it never worked so if it didn't work then it sure as hell ain't going to work now. I've had my eyes opened as soon as she mentioned the word divorce...it's never entered my mind and it scares the hell out of me knowing it's entered hers.

yeah errr thanks for that Heather, i definitely needed a good cry

There is no way that they can get a divorce, none at all so send Kris back and make things all better
Oh and Zoe should know Kris better than to think he would go off with some little tart lol

Love it just send him back and make it better though cos well we need happiness

Brilliant ,please fix.
And no more talk of divorce

Can't wait for more

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Originally posted by clumsy kay:
yeah errr thanks for that Heather, i definitely needed a good cry

LMAO! Sorry! xxx

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Originally posted by clumsy kay:
yeah errr thanks for that Heather, i definitely needed a good cry

There is no way that they can get a divorce, none at all so send Kris back and make things all better
Oh and Zoe should know Kris better than to think he would go off with some little tart lol

Love it just send him back and make it better though cos well we need happiness

Well said Kay

I've made my feelings crystal clear on numerous occasions hun so i'll leave it at this....

You know whats right

xxxxxxx

brill!!
kay is definately right tho!! we need a bit of hapiness here...

xxx

Hmm, lets see if I can fix this...Lol...

Kris' POV

"You love her?" She replies, she doesn't sound too impressed with me.
"Zo, you know just how much I love her.."

"No Kris, I thought I knew...but if you loved her like you say you do then you'd be with her right now. You wouldn't be here.."

"I needed to clear my head..." It sounds ridiculous.
"What of exactly?"
"I don't know....everything, I suppose..."
"Why did you say those things to her, Kris?"
"What things?" I act daft and look at the floor. I know exactly what she's talking about.
"Olivia. You threw it back in her face, why?"
"I...I don't know..."
"Do you still hold it against her, is that it?"
"No..." I look at her this time, I want to make sure she knows it. "...she knows I don't."

"Well you tell her one thing one minute and when you have a bust up, you throw it back at her. You do it because you know it hurts her..."

"No!" I yell.
"So why do you say it then?!"

"Because i'm a stupid, pathetic, useless idiot that's why!" I say back. "She should never have been with me anyway."

"What are you talking about?"

"She's always been too good for me, everyone knew it and i've just proved it. She deserves better."

"Oh shut up and stop feeling sorry for yourself! To Jess, you're the most beautiful person in the world so why would she want anyone else eh? Kris, she loves you so much and you know she does. So she went to his funeral, it didn't mean anything..."

"Didn't it?"

"You know it didn't." She whispers. "She spoke about you the whole way back, she knew how much her going upset you and she wanted to make it up to you..."

"If she knew how much it hurt, why did she do it?" I don't understand, even now.

"It was just something she had to do, you have to accept that. It's done now and he's gone, he can't come back and hurt you anymore, so don't let him ruin what you and Jess have."

She's right, she's always been bloody right and it's probably a wake up call I deserved. I don't blame her for being angry with me, not Zoe and especially not Jess.

"Zo, what the hell do I say to her?"

"I don't know..." She answers honestly. "...sorry might be a good start. You just have to work from there."

"She's not really thinking about...you know..."
"She mentioned it in a heat of the moment thing, she wouldn't have meant it."
"No?"
"What do you think?"
"Well if she was being serious, I can't say I blame her."

"It's a stupid row that went too far, that's all. What's the point in throwing it all away for that?"

"Suppose it's not saying much for me though is it?" I sigh as she asks what i'm talking about. "I mean this is our first proper serious arguement and what do I do? I don't stay and try to sort it out...no, not me I just run a mile..."

"You made a mistake, now you've got to put it right."
"You really think I can?"

"If you really want to then there's no reason why you can't." She starts to soften towards me. "She's been worrying that she has to go to this next scan on her own, worried that she'd find out what you were having without you being there.."

"I'd never forget about the scan, I know i've been such an idiot but I wouldn't not show up."
"I know. I believe you." She says. "Kris, come back..they need you, they all do."

"I can't just give up on all this can I?" I stand up and walk around, throwing my things into the bag I brought with me. I make sure i've got all my important things before I leave the room and leave the keys at the desk downstairs. Luckily a taxi is dropping people off, so we jump in it and before I know it i'm on my way home, where I should be. I should never have left, whether my head needed space or not...it doesn't matter...I should have stayed, worked through it.

"You'll be fine." Zoe whispers as we get nearer home. "She'll be angry at first..."
"I can't blame her for that. I'll take everything she throws at me, cos I deserve it."

"Just tell her what you told me. Tell her how sorry you are and tell her how much you love her."

We pull up outside and as Zoe pays, I step outside with my bag and stare up at the house. It's late so most lights are out, our bedroom one is still on though, so she must still be awake.

"Go on..." Zoe says from behind me. "...you don't go now, you never will."
"Wish me luck then."
"You won't need it. Give it time and you two will be back to normal, I promise."

I thank her, she's talked so much sense into me in the last couple of hours. It was definately needed. I just needed a good talking too and Zoe's always good at that, she's always telling me off and I know I listen to her....it's probably because she's always been there.

I get to the front door and look back, only to notice Zoe's already went inside. I sigh, needing to somehow compose myself...if I don't do it now, I never will...she's right, again. I push the front door open and i'm slightly surprised it isn't locked, once inside I push it shut and place my key in the lock, locking it for the night. I quietly place my bag on the floor and take off my jacket, hanging it over the back of the sofa. That's when the hallway light comes on and I hear her coming downstairs. She stops halfway and my eyes focus firmly on her, just out of bed and she still looks beautiful, that's what I ran from.. could I be anymore stupid?

"Kris?" She says, almost in a whisper and she comes down the rest of the stairs. "Is that you?"
"Ofcourse it is, who else did you expect at this time eh?"

I smile at her, I want to walk over, hold her, do anything just to let her know how sorry I am...but after staring at me for a number of seconds, she turns and runs back upstairs crying.

It looks like i've got alot of work to do.

Thats much better now! At least its a start, now all he has to do is grovel and Jess will take him back of course and everything will be happily ever after fab Heather xxx

Amazing ,Get groveling Kris