Okay, so this is my first fic so it might not be that good just tell me if it’s really bad and I’ll stop writing. Anyway it’s going to be based on “Life On Mars” but minus all the police stuff. If you haven’t seen it you will hopefully still understand the fic. Anyway I’m going to base it on Jess’s POV, but I might change it as the story goes on. Hope you enjoy reading it!!
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“Arghh”, that stupid alarm clock ruining my beauty sleep once again. I slowly open my eyes and look around my room. I’m in complete darkness, I hate these winter mornings so dull and dark. I reach out towards my alarm clock and quickly shut it up. As I turn back to the position as was in before I was awoken, I realise Rob isn’t next to me. He’s obviously already left for work. Another thing hate more then winter mornings is waking up alone, I have had to get used to it though as Rob is always up early. His job is very demanding, well both are jobs are. Rob’s career is everything to him though, I used to think my career was everything to me but I know there are more important things out there but unfortunately I will never be able to have any of them. A few minutes later and I have eventually got up and out of the comfort of my nice, warm, cosy bed. The coldness of the wooden flooring makes me shiver, so I quickly snatch some of my socks from my draw and slip them on. I walk towards the kitchen and call out Rob’s name, just to see if he is still here, but as I get no reply I assume he has already left. A nice cup of coffee will hopefully wake me up as I switch the kettle on I notice the time on cooker “6.54”, I say to myself, when a was in college I would never have even seen this time before but things have changed now. I’m not a care-free student anymore; I’m now the head of a big national newspaper which is anything but care-free. All my adult life I have planned my career out and this is how I imagined myself being a boss at a big company. When I was younger though I imagined my life to be a lot different, I would dream about being a princess and getting married to the man I loved and having lots of children and lots of friends to share my happiness with. That was just a dream now though. I was 44 years old and I wasn’t married and didn’t have any children or any real friends. I couldn’t tell anyone this because I had no one to turn to. Rob was so wrapped up in his career to even notice how unhappy I was with my life.
If I could go back though I know I would do everything differently.
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“Miss Harris, Rob’s on line one for you” “Oh thanks Clare”, I said a light dazed as had been day dreaming again about the old days back in college. I used to have so much fun then but now I’m stuck in my big white office with only piles and piles of documents to be sorted out. I thought I hired an assistant to do all the boring jobs for me but my assistant Jane had gone on honeymoon to Wales. Who would take their new wife to Wales? I don’t know I couldn’t say anything though; at least Jane had a husband to take with her to Wales.
I picked up the black phone and pressed Line one. I wasn’t really bothered about hearing Rob’s poor accuse or even an apology for the argument we had last night but I suppose it would take my mind off all this paperwork in front of me for a few minutes. “Hello”, I say in my polite voice phone voice. “Hi Jessica” “You sound all serious calling me Jessica” “Sorry Jess, listen I’m sorry for last night I shouldn’t have argued with you. I was being stupid. Do you forgive me?” Just as I had expected an apology and then a “do you forgive me?” It was always the same but to make things easier I always just forgave him whatever. “Its okay, your forgiven”, I say. “Thanks hunni…Oh and by the way I’m going to be late getting home tonight. It’s just I’ve got lots of work that needs doing”. “Alright, I understand I’m really busy too”, I say to not make him feel bad. It looks like it’s going to be another lonely night in for me. I might just watch some old films and buy some ice-cream even though I’m on a diet. “Well I best get back to this work then. Bye Jess, love you”. “Bye, Remember don’t work too hard. See you tomorrow”. I put the phone down and look at my new Gucci watch. It’s 1pm and I think it’s time for some lunch. I’ll ask Clare if she wants to come with me to keep me company seen as I’m already going to be alone tonight.
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I help myself to some truffles that have been in my cupboard since Christmas. I think I deserve them after that conversation I had with Clare at lunchtime. God, I didn’t know that one woman could have so much to say. I went in that restaurant with perfect hearing and feeling happy anyway I came out depressed and half deaf. I didn’t know Clare’s life was so stressful she almost made life look like a bed of roses. So I’ve decided to treat myself by eating what I want and when want, I’ve stuffed the diet, it’s not like I have anyone to impress is it. I’m going to watch my favourite film “The Devil Wears Prada”. I know it’s old but it’s still good and it brings back good memories.
Flashback…
Kris: Right your face looks like you need cheering up so we are going to watch a film. Me, you, a blanket and some cheap crisps. So what do you say?
A smile spreads across my face; I knew Kris could be nice when he wants to be.
Jess: Sure. Thanks Kris. Kris: Don’t smile too much about it though. I’m only watching it with you because it’s one of my favourite films and no one else is saddest enough to watch it with me. I don’t take pity on sad people I just use them.
Maybe he can’t be nice then. I hit him on the arm to let him know that I didn’t appreciate that comment.
Jess: You are heartless aren’t you Kris? Kris: I do try my best Jessica. He walks off and leaves me on my own just sitting on the sofa. Kris: Get the crisps Jess.
He calls from his room. I stand up and do as he says. He can be so bossy. I grab the big bag of crisps and walk over to the sofa and sit myself down on the warm seat where I was sitting before. Then Kris comes walking in with a big blanket and “The Devils Wears Prada” in his arm.
Jess: Typical, you always want to watch that film. Kris: Shut up and grab this. He hands me the blanket and then walks over to the telly. He presses a button and then the machine suddenly goes up in smoke and makes a loud bang. The living room is filled with smoke in a matter of seconds.
Jess: aaaahhhh. I scream as I run to the safety of the kitchen. Jess: Oh my god! What happened?
I say. As the smokes starts to clear I see an outline of Kris in the mist of smoke. His face is covered in dust. I can’t help but laugh at the half man, half woman standing in front me looking like a snowman with a shocked look on his face.
Jess: Kris are you okay? I can’t help but giggle. He lets out a small cough. Then looks at me and bursts out laughing.
Kris: Just my luck. I’m gonna kill Zak for buying that dodgy telly off his weird looking uncle Kev.
End of Flashback
I still laugh about that now it was just so funny. Kris’s face was hilarious. I seem to be thinking about my time in college a lot recently. I don’t know why? I’ve never really thought about before I suppose. Anyway back to watching this film. I get myself in a comfy position and put the warm blanket over my cold body. I wish Kris was here to watch it with me though we always had such a laugh together me and him.
Thursday 18th February 2031 and things where about to change…
“Jess I’m home”, Rob called as he walked through the front door and into the Lounge. “Hi, stranger”, I said as I hadn’t seen him since Tuesday. He doesn’t say anything. “Are you okay, you seem a bit quiet”, I say, I start to get a bit concerned, he’s never usually this cold with me. There’s still no answer. He just sits down on the chair furthest away from me. “Is this about that silly argument we had”, I say, trying to get some answers from him. There just silence in the room. I don’t know what’s wrong it’s like I’ve done something but I don’t even know what I’ve done. Why can’t he just say something? He finally starts to speak. “Jessica, we need to talk”. “Alright, I’m listening so talk?” I’m talking he’s the one that’s not saying anything. “I think we need a….break”, he says. I sit there in silence. I have nothing to say, I’m shocked. Where did this all come from? Okay are relationship was never always based on Love but he seemed happy even if I wasn’t. The only word I could get out of my mouth was “Why?” “Jess, you know why? I hardly ever get to see you and when I do your always unhappy or stressed out about something”, me the one that was stressed that was a joke he was always the stressed one. “I know you want all that marriage stuff and a big family. You can’t deny that you’ve always said you would”. Rob, knew where to get to me. I knew what a sacrifice it was getting involved with Rob. I knew that he never wanted what I wanted. But at my age I just wanted to be happy. “I don’t want all that stuff Jess; I just want to focus on my job and the other things in life”. “Why are you saying all this now?” I say trying to hold the tears back. There’s silence in the room again… “I’ve had a job offer. It’s in Sydney. I don’t think that us two would be strong enough to go all the way across the world together”. “So you just decided this on your own then”. I say. “Me and you, where best off just being friends”. I could have punched him. How could he say this and now. “Friends”, I scream. “Is that all I meant to you?” I can’t believe he is saying this. He is such an idiot. “Please Jess; I was just thinking of you”. When has he ever just thought about me? “I need some fresh air and time to think”. He touches my arm and I just push his hand away and walk to the door. “I’m sorry”, he calls. I burst into to tears and open the front door. I walk straight out into the street into the cold air of the night. I shiver but I don’t care that I’m freezing. I just keep walking into the darkness. Just me and my thoughts.
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I had know idea where I was going but I knew that how ever far I walked the hurt and pain would never leave me. Rob had always been like a barrier for me. I might not ever be happy but at least I had someone there, now though that had all gone. I was now totally alone with no barrier to support me. The tears start to come down again. I could feel the cold, salty tears running down my face. I wanted the ground to swallow me up; I needed to escape this nightmare. I saw bright lights up ahead and I heard voices. I realised I was looking straight at a pub, it looked so warm in their, but I knew that drinking would probably make my problems worse. A man came stumbling out of the doors with a pint glass in his hand. He was very drunk and he absolutely reeked of alcohol. I tried to avoid him but he still started shouting things at me, I couldn’t understand a word he was saying. I quickened my pace. I lost him but I had also lost the light and the warmth from the pub. I was back in the darkness again. In the corner of my eye I could see a light; it was coming from the park. There was an old fashioned lamp with a bench next to it. It looked so welcoming I laughed at this thought how could a park bench seem welcoming but this one did.
She looked over at the park through her watery eyes. She raised her thin hand up to her face and wiped away the tears in her eyes. Jess was in a world of her own. Her head lifted up to the stars and the moon in the clear winter sky. Jess began to mumble something to herself. I wiped my eyes for the hundredth time this night. I looked up at the night sky. It was clear. I saw all the stars and a full moon. It looked so perfect.
Flashback…
I laid my head back on the blanket that Kris had brought up for us all to sit on. I was the one in charge of bringing the pillows. Elliot had brought us star gazing on top of the college roof.
Zoe: It looks really pretty with all the stars just shining in the sky, know wonder you like it up here Elliot.
Zoe was true it was beautiful. I didn’t seem to have a care in the world back then.
I arranged my pillows on the ground and then placed a blanket over me, to keep cosy and warm. I cuddled into Kris’s chest, he didn’t seem to mind. I looked up at the white moon.
Zak: Pass us the popcorn, Kris.
Zak always was a good moment killer.
Jess: Take them!
Zak: Do think it’s true what they say about a man living on the moon?
Kris: Zak, I can’t believe you would even think that!
I couldn’t help but giggle to myself. Kris: Do you remember that star man song?
Elliot: One of my favourites that is.
I was now giggling even more.
Zak started to sing…
Zak: There’s a star man…
All: Waiting in the sky, He liked to come an meet us…
End of Flashback
I smiled as I remembered that night. I started to sing the song to myself. One single tear drop ran down my cold face. I stepped out onto the wet road; I was still looking up at the beautiful big moon. I was well and truly lost in my own thoughts.
BANG!!! SCREECHHH!! Went the brakes on the car, but it was to late the car had already hit her. She lay unconscious on the cold ground.
OH NO! Jess! But now (if the title is like the programme) She'll go back in time and get old jess to go with kris! lol! Write more soon, and just so u no i was up to date on this but wasn't posting comments. sorry!
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