OOH HOW EVIL IS SARAH AND OOH I'M JUST VISUALIZING JOHN PAUL IN THEM BOXER'S OMG

Ah Just leave Sarah!!

Please continue...Lovin it!

damnit sarah! get lost

Wow page two, i never expected this story to go on for so long and yet i still dont seem to have got very far, there are still lots of ideas floating around in my head.

thanks to all those of you who are reading this, i hope you are enjoying it, thanks for the great comments they make me want to write more.

anyway this is just a filler bit the next part is proving to be difficult to write and i realised i needed to set it up a bit more. anyway here is chapter 18 please comment.



Chapter 18

It seemed to take Craig a lifetime to get himself cleaned up and eat his lunch which Nancy had kindly made for him. Jake was beginning to get restless; he wasn’t looking forward to this afternoon and just wanted it to be over with.

It wasn’t that Craig had deliberately tried to take his time, he just didn’t seem capable of moving any faster, it felt like he was moving in slow motion, trying to wash his face and make it look like he hadn’t been sobbing for most of the day. When he had eventually sat down to eat the lunch Nancy had made his mouth felt so dry that he struggled to eat any of it. Eventually he gave up having only eaten half of what had been placed in front of him.

“You ready mate?” asked Jake kindly.

“No” said Craig shaking his head but standing up anyway and making his way to the door. “I realize now though that I am never gonna be ready, and there is never going to be a good time, so I just have to do it don’t I?”

Jake smiled at his younger brother. Craig had always been the most intelligent of the Deans, although he had never had any common sense, and had always been immature to say the least, he wasn’t confident; he had always hidden behind others who would protect him. Craig had surprised his older brother who had never thought Craig would actually go through with it without a push at least. Jake liked the new and improved Craig Dean though, he was more mature, confident, and considerate and somehow he seemed wiser. Jake understood that this was because of John Paul’s influence, he knew that the man his brother had fallen in love with had caused this dramatic, and welcome change in his youngest sibling, and it was this knowledge that helped him to come to terms with his brother’s declarations of love for another man. He was never going to be happy his brother was in a gay relationship, but he couldn’t deny the profound effect this boy had on his brother, and he had to admit the change seemed to be for the better.

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Jacqui had entered the pub nervously looking around her hoping to see Craig before he told his family, the last thing that anyone needed was a McQueen/Dean/Osborne showdown in the middle of the dog. Jacqui knew what her family was like, and was well aware that Franki had a sharp tongue when she wanted, today could end in complete carnage if she wasn’t careful. She had offered to get the first round of drinks in, wanting to see who was working, as she got to the bar Franki had smiled at her and she realized Craig hadn’t told them, he couldn’t have, Franki was not the kind of person to sit and calmly listen, Jacqui had a feeling that when Craig told her his feelings for JP she was not going to be happy.

“Hiya Franki, is your Craig about? Were having a bit of a celebration for Carmel’s birthday thought he could come and keep john Paul sane. I feel a bit sorry for him on his own you know?” She was rambling and she knew it. It was strange Jacqui didn’t get nervous normally, but this was something that could hurt a lot of people and she knew it, JP would be the worst affected and however much she loved her sisters, it was her brother who was her favourite. JP had always been smart, strong, quick witted, caring and considerate, she now realized how vulnerable he could be, he was quiet and tended to keep his problems to himself, she had heard him crying in his room a lot recently and she now knew why. Jacqui wanted her brother to be happy and had seen the look on his face when he had told her he was in love, if Craig was what he wanted she was going to do her best to make it as smooth a ride for them as possible.

“No love I haven’t seen him all day.” Replied Franki.

Jacqui ordered the drinks and asked if they could be brought over to the table. She was desperately wondering where he could be. Craig had confessed to her how many times he had chickened out of telling Sarah, could he have done it again? Or maybe she had hurt him? Maybe he was still trying to calm her down? She didn’t know but forced herself to calm down, panicking didn’t work she knew that.

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Sarah knew she had to make Craig pay for what he had done, she had suspected something was going on, Craig had been distant with her at times and then all over her the next minute, she had even wondered if he had been cheating on her a few times. When she had first thought that Craig might be involved with someone else she had asked JP and he had assured he that Craig wasn’t cheating, ‘oh my god’ she suddenly thought back to his words, he hadn’t said that Craig wasn’t cheating he had told her that Craig loved her and no other girl would ever come close. He had told her that her boyfriend had never looked at another girl, she hadn’t thought anything of it at the time, but now, the significance of his words sunk in. JP had been her friend and had betrayed her but he had somehow managed to tell her what she wanted to hear without lying, well not completely anyway.

Sarah couldn’t think strait her best friend and her boyfriend, it was such a cliché or it would have been if JP had been a girl. Sarah was going to get her revenge, she wanted to hurt them both, she knew she could, she may not be as close to Craig as JP was, but she knew him well enough to be able to hurt him. How dare he cheat on her, she was a model, she was desirable, she was a cover girl on a magazine, he had fought for her and then when he had finally made her promises about their future life together in Dublin he had pulled it all out from under her feet. It made it a thousand times worse that he had dumped her for a man, it made her feel sick that he had been sleeping with both of them, she was angry now, no longer upset, that could wait what she wanted now was revenge.

As Sarah left the flat still swaying slightly due to the alcohol in her system she smiled to herself, she had the remnants of the vodka in her bag if she needed some extra courage, but she was determined to get her revenge, Craig Dean had cheated on her with a man, and she was going to get back at him for that, even if it killed her.

Oh god I hate Sarah! I just want JP and Craig to be happy!

LOVING YOUR STORY THOUGH CARLINGCHICK!

fantastic writing there mate

sarah leave the boys alone! they love each other.

ME NOT LIKEN SARAH MAKE CRAIG GET TO FRANKIE FIRST

AWWW! Just read this fic, love it!! x

here it is chapter 19 hope you enjoy it cos i really hated writing it, i wanted to get onto the next chapter.

anyway please comment and let me know what you think thanks xxx


Chapter 19

JP had been nervous about coming to the pub, he didn’t want Craig to think that he was pressuring him; he didn’t know if Craig had even told anyone, part of him was expecting yet another excuse from the man he loved. JP was used to it Craig Dean had an excuse for everything and no matter how hard he tried not to, in the end he always ended up forgiving him, Craig was like an addiction to him, no matter how much he wanted to resist he just couldn’t.

He had been shifting about in his seat so much that Michaela had asked him very loudly if he had crabs. Before he had chance to answer Jacqui had cracked the youngest McQueen around the head with the back of her hand and told her not to be so crude. She had then smiled kindly at JP and he had wondered again if she knew more than she was letting on.

The two pints of lager he had drunk hadn’t managed to calm him and he was wondering how much longer he would have to endure being here before he could escape to the sanctity of his bedroom.

Franki walked over to the group collecting glasses, she had smiled at him and enquired if he knew where her son was, she explained she hadn’t seen much of him over the last few days and JP felt his heart sink. It was obvious she didn’t know about the two of them, although he had the letter as proof of the affair between him and Craig he would never use it to ‘out’ him he knew that and had the feeling Craig did too. Once again it was looking like Craig was going to chicken out at the last minute. Make another excuse about the timing not being right, or trying to spare someone’s feelings. Sometimes, just sometimes JP had hoped they would get caught forcing Craig to admit his feelings to the world, but he didn’t want that to happen really, he wanted Craig to tell people. He knew if caught Craig would lie his way out of it somehow and make himself look like the victim, he always did.

JP wanted to leave but he had no way to escape, his phone rang in his pocket, and reluctantly he removed it to look at the display, it was spike calling him and he smiled, at least someone knew the full story, well his side anyway, he made his excuses and walked to the decking area outside the pub answering the phone as he walked.

“Hey you” said spike the minute JP had answered the phone.

“Hey” said JP

“You ok? Where are you? I don’t need to work today after all so you fancy doing something?” Spike was genuinely concerned for JP and it, made both men feel better. Spike was happy to have been forgiven and a part of JP’s life, he wanted happiness for his friend and he felt bad about how he had acted in the past. For JP it was nice to have someone put him first for once, his family was so big that at times he felt like he faded into the background as all his sisters, except Tina were louder than him, and Craig always seemed to have an agenda.

As JP explained the situation to Spike, how he was stuck in the pub and needed an excuse to leave he heard the other man laugh.

“It’s not funny!” said JP his tone let Spike know that he really didn’t find this situation funny.

“It is kind of funny actually,” said Spike “I will be there in five ok? And then we will work out a plan to get you out of there yeah?”

JP agreed he had told Spike that he wanted his family to think it was a coincidence that he had turned up and sighing Spike agreed. He was getting tired of everything being so complicated he wanted the truth to come out almost as much as JP did.

The next ten minutes passed painfully slowly for JP, there was still no sign of Craig and his phone had been turned off for days now. JP had to prepare himself for the next excuse, and the next part of his heart being broken. Every time Craig had lied to him, made an excuse or hurt him in some way he had promised himself it would be the last time. He had never been able to stick to it though, he didn’t know what was different this time but what he did know was this had to be the last time. It was now or never time for him and Craig and he had a feeling it was never.

JP had told his family that the phone call had been from the loft reminding him about his set later on in the week, surprisingly they had all seemed to believe him, and for this he was grateful. Well except Jacqui who he was sure was keeping something from him, she kept smiling at him and it was beginning to make him feel awkward. She knew there was a new man in his life and that things were complicated he had told her that much himself, but she hadn’t pressed him for details, this was strange in itself, but the way she looked at him made him think she knew something.

Spike eventually arrived in the pub and casually walked over to the family gathering smiling at them all, he hugged Carmel and wished her a happy birthday.

“Oh Spike how did you know it was my birthday?” she asked her bright blue eyes so wide and so much like JP’s. Spike didn’t know how anyone could dislike this particular McQueen, her ditzyness and naivety was endearing, she was so sweet and kind she was definitely his second favourite McQueen.

“You’re wearing a badge that says happy birthday, and you have a helium balloon attached to your handbag.” Said Spike smiling. “You could say it was a lucky guess.” He was laughing now.

“This is Phil by the way.” He said motioning to a man stood at the side of him.

JP hadn’t noticed him as he had walked in, his eyes had been solely on Spike and with the relief he felt that his friend had arrived had temporarily pushed everything out of his mind.

JP smiled at the man stood at the side of his ex, Spike definitely liked his blond haired blue eyed boys. Phil was tall with dirty blond hair which was quite long; he had bright blue eyes not unlike JP’s. He was dressed in tight black jeans, white shirt and a black waist coat, he looked like he belonged on stage with a guitar in his hands JP thought to himself as he admired the tattoos on his forearm, he had that cool but kind of geeky band look about him.

Spike had introduced everyone to Phil except JP who stood up to shake the mans hand. “I’ve heard a lot about you recently.” Said JP smiling and shaking the mans hand in a friendly manner.

Phil returned the smile but pulled JP into a hug saying “and I have heard a lot about you and Craig.” He said the last bit in a whisper only JP heard. As the two men pulled apart Spike was explaining to the McQueen family that this was his ex who he had decided to try again with thanks to JP’s encouragement. It wasn’t completely true but no one needed to know that.

“Can I get anyone a drink?” Spike knew he probably shouldn’t have asked as this was going to cost him a fortune but he was so happy having Phil back and seeing JP smile so warmly at him he had felt a sudden urge to celebrate his life going well for once.

“I will give you a hand.” Said both JP and Phil simultaneously, they laughed and both started walking towards the bar.

“It’s a long story, so I will explain at another time.” said Spike kindly to JP “lets just say I explained your story to Phil and he quit the band and got back to me as soon as he could, you inspired us both to fight for what WE wanted, not what everyone around us wanted.”

“Do you think you could explain that to a certain someone please?” said JP sadly.

“You mean the certain someone I just saw outside throwing up into the river?” said Spike smiling. “His brother was with him and your mate Nancy, from the look of things he is either seriously drunk, or nervous.”

“Really?” said JP, his eyes lighting up. He could feel his chest constrict, he was nervous himself now, and suddenly his mouth felt dry. He was scared, what if Craig had got drunk, had changed his mind, deciding that his sham with Sarah was the better option, he felt sick himself. What if Craig was nervous had brought his brother and Nancy here to tell his whole family together? Would they understand or would they throw him out and disown him? What was his family going to think?

Spike put his hand firmly on the younger mans shoulder and smiled kindly, “if it is meant to be John Paul it will be.” Said Phil in a mater of fact way. When John Paul turned to look at him he had a smile on his face. “From the looks of things he has made the right decision.” Said Phil nodding towards the other end of the bar.

Craig was stood there looking pale and sweaty, he looked so lost and frightened and JP just wanted to run over and hold him, tell him everything was going to be ok, tell him that he loved him no matter what happened.

As Craig slowly lifted his head he caught sight of JP’s eyes and he suddenly felt taller, stronger, and capable of telling his family. The two men shared a small smile, full of promise and love; they each knew in that moment that this was really going to happen this time.

Spike made a point of smiling at Craig and then kissing Phil, he didn’t want the fact that he was stood with JP to make Craig think that they were together, there were enough confusions and complications already. For the first time ever Craig smiled at Spike, a real smile he realized that what Spike had done was for his benefit, it looked like JP had told him at least some of their story, Craig was actually happy about that fact. He had hated the idea of JP being on his own for the last couple of weeks, he had hated the idea of him being with Spike more, but now it seemed he had got Spikes blessing somehow in that small smile.

Craig had no idea when such simple gestures had spoken such volumes to him; he hadn’t realized that he could read peoples facial expressions and gestures in so much detail. Craig laughed to himself, he wasn’t gay he was turning into a girl. ‘Get a grip Craig’ he thought to himself, this wasn’t the time to be having stupid thoughts he had to be serious and he knew it.

Jake was staring at him and Craig just nodded to him, he was ready for this, he called his mother and Step- father over to where he was stood and asked if they could join him upstairs, but before he could finish there was a loud bang as the door swung open and a shriek from a disheveled and angry looking Sarah.

“Well well,” said Sarah as she stumbled slightly entering the pub, an empty vodka bottle falling to the floor, “I am so glad to see so many of you here today, in fact almost everyone I wanted to see.” She smiled nastily at Craig and he knew there was no way he was going to be able to stop her.

“I have a secret to tell you all.” Said Sarah looking round the room before locking eyes with Craig.

ok here is the next chapter. is anyone still reading this?

its starting to drag on now and its annoying me because i know what i want to happen its just that it seems to be taking forever to get there so sorry about that. anyway here you go, please comment and let me know if you like it.

thanks xx


Chapter 20

“I don’t think you have.” Said Jacqui menacingly. With all eyes on Sarah no one had seen the eldest and toughest of the McQueen’s leave her seat and make her way over to the doorway. She stood mere inches from Sarah; staring intently at her she knew she could intimidate this girl.

Sarah laughed at her, “oh I think I have.” Spat Sarah. Before she could say another word Jacqui had placed one hand over Sarah’s mouth and was using the other to try and restrain her, just as Jacqui started to struggle she realized Nancy who had almost ran across the pub was holding Sarah’s arms behind her back.

“I am not gonna let you do this Sarah, you will regret it and it’s not your place to tell anyone anything.” Said Nancy.

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The two women managed somehow to drag the writhing Sarah out of the pub and although she was kicking, biting and attempting to scream, Jacqui managed to drag her out of the pub onto the decking as Nancy kept Sarah’s hand held firmly behind her back.

“You both know.” Screamed Sarah “you both know don’t you, Nancy how could you not tell me.” She was screaming now and Jacqui regretted moving her hand from over Sarah’s mouth.

“Sarah, Craig told me yesterday, he couldn’t find you, he never wanted to hurt you, I really believe that, but this isn’t the right thing to do, not for either of you.” Said Nancy sadly. “He made me promise not to tell anyone, you deserved to hear it from him not me.”

Jacqui looked at the two girls in front of her and knew instinctively Sarah was not going to just leave quietly. “Sarah, listen to me.” Spat Jacqui “you do anything, and I mean anything to hurt either of them, and you will have the whole McQueen family after you, and we take no prisoners, do you understand me?” she hadn’t taken her eyes from Sarah’s the whole time and saw the fear she had expected.

Sarah just nodded, there were tears rolling down her face as the two women let go of her. “Sarah go home, sort yourself out, get over him Sarah cos he aint ever coming back to you now.” Said Jacqui.

Sarah got up and an towards the village, she had been so sure of what she wanted to do, but it seemed people already knew, worse than that people were taking their side. As Sarah reached the alley way back into the village she had to stop to be sick, she would just have to think of another way to hurt them, both of them, and their families.

Jacqui smiled at Nancy, “thanks for that, I would have struggled to stop her talking and get her out of there.”

Nancy smiled back “I don’t agree with how they went about things, and I think what they both did to Sarah was horrible, but she would have regretted it, and I don’t think either family should find out from her do you?”

“No” said Jacqui but we better get inside and make sure they are finding out and preferably from Craig this time.”

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Franki stared at the place her youngest son’s distraught girlfriend had stood only moments earlier, she couldn’t understand why she had been so upset, why she had said something about a secret, why Jacqui McQueen and Nancy had stopped her and dragged her from the pub. Why Nancy had said it wasn’t her place to say anything?

“Craig? Craig?” she said looking at her son, but he paid her no attention, there were tears silently falling down his cheeks, and his gaze was locked onto something, as she followed it she realized there was another person crying silently, the person her son didn’t seem able to tear his eyes away from.

“Craig, you had better start talking this minute.” Shouted Franki, dragging him, and pushing him until he stood directly in front of her, staring into her eyes.

He didn’t say a word though just stood there tears rolling down his face unable to find the words to explain what had been happening.

Franki could feel her anger flooding her body, as she stepped away from her youngest child. “Everyone get out, the show is over and I want everyone out of my pub.” She shouted, but she was looking directly at JP when she said it.

As people around started to gather their belongings and make their way towards the door, Franki seemed to be loosing it completely, she was pushing people out of the door and screaming at people to leave.

Craig had made his way over to the table where the McQueen’s were sitting slightly shell shocked but not moving, Myra had told them all to stay where they were, she wasn’t stupid, she knew this had something to do with her son and she was determined to get to the bottom of this.

“I think you had all better stay.” Said Craig quietly, “I’m sorry, this isn’t how I wanted to do this.” He said struggling to look any of them in the eye.

everyone had left the pub now except the McQueen’s and the Dean/Osborne family and Franki was like a woman possessed she grabbed Carmel’s arm and tried to drag her out of the pub, Carmel never the toughest of the McQueen’s screamed in pain, Jacqui ran to assist her sister but was beaten to the woman by Craig who had managed to loosen his mothers grip enough to allow Carmel to wriggle out of the older woman’s hand.

“Mum this involves them too the need to stay.” He said quietly.

JP had walked across the pub, Spike had told him to be strong for Craig and to ring him if either of them needed anything, after a quick hug and a good luck from Spike and Phil they left and JP had made his way over to the two families. Taking a deep breath he stood behind Craig.

Craig could feel the presence of someone stood right behind him and he knew instinctively who it was. Craig suddenly felt completely calm and without a second thought his mouth opened and words were being formed on his lips, he didn’t think about any of it, he didn’t seem to be in control anymore, but this had to be done, and he felt that his words were the right ones.

“mum, this is why I wanted to talk to you, I finished with Sarah this morning, I wasn’t in love with her, I don’t know if I ever was, it wasn’t fair on her so I finished it.” He couldn’t bear to look at his mother he could feel her hatred as she stared at him so he moved his eyes around the room looking at everyone else in the room. “I have been cheating on her, not because I wanted to hurt anyone, but because I was weak, I was scared of what people would say, think and do if they knew the truth. I never meant for any of this to happen, I didn’t want to hurt anyone and I didn’t mean to cheat on Sarah, but I did.” He could feel JP’s hand barely touching the small of his back but it was enough to give him extra strength, he saw the proud look on Nancy’s face and Jacqui winked at him, taking a deep breath Craig continued. “I fell in love with someone else, and I didn’t understand it at first, I was confused and scared and I ended up hurting people, it took a long time to get my head around what was happening to me, and how I was feeling. I tried to ignore it and pretend I was fine and nothing had changed, I tried to live a double life, and that just hurt people even more. And now I am trying to be honest and I still seem to be hurting people.” Tears silently fell down Craig’s face as he struggled to breathe.

“I fell in love with John Paul, I don’t know when or how but I did, I love him more than I ever thought was possible, he is everything I want, and I have hurt him so badly I treated him badly, because I was scared, I was scared of today, of everyone finding out. I nearly lost him and I can’t do that, I love him, I want him, and I need him, more than anything else in the world. I want to spend the rest of my life with him; the thought of being apart from him for any longer is killing me.” Craig turned around to look into JP’s eyes. “That is if you will still have me?”

JP couldn’t believe that Craig had just told them all, he had confessed how he was in love with him, how could he say no now. JP leaned forward slightly before answering. “Of course I will, I love you, you’re all I have ever wanted.” Craig leaned forward and placed a small loving kiss on his boyfriends lips whispering “I love you” simultaneously as they parted.

Franki reached for Craig’s arm and pulled it roughly till he was standing at the side of her.

“what have you done to my little boy?” she spat at JP “you and your filthy ways, you have changed him, you brainwashed him, but I will sort him out, I will get him better and I will make sure he never has any contact with you or any of your filthy half breed family again.” JP didn’t move a muscle, he took each of Franki’s hurtful words but didn’t react, she was upset and angry, he knew and understood that, but she was Craig’s mum and whatever anyone thought of his family, they had been brought up to respect their own mother, and anyone else’s mum.

“I am sorry you feel that way Franki,” he said with genuine regret in his voice, “but I didn’t do anything to your son, I have only ever loved him and told him how I feel.” Before he could say anymore Craig had moved to stand beside his boyfriend, the hateful words he had heard coming from his mother had spurred him on to say something, he was surprised the McQueen’s hadn’t started a war yet, but he was not going to let his mother speak like that to the man he loved.

“mum, he told me he loved me at Hannah’s birthday party, and I freaked out, and then at the dance, I told him that I loved him and I kissed him, I was drunk and we got caught and I panicked, I didn’t know why I had kissed him and it scared me.” Craig was struggling not to lose his temper but the hands holding onto either side of his waist helped, Craig was sure JP had put his hands there to enable him to restrain Craig. “I walked out of my exam, I went to his house to talk to him, I was upset and confused and he was the only person who would understand how I felt, I went to him mum, me I made the first move, I always did, it was always me that was in charge, that decided it would be a secret, me who caused all this mess, it was all me mum.” Craig looked at his mother as she stood in front of him shaking her head, “mum it was me that kissed him that guided him to bed, it was me who messed it all up, and that’s why it’s me that has to fix it.” Craig didn’t know what else he could say, he had a feeling the McQueen’s were probably ready to lynch him now and just hoped that Jacqui would be able to keep them calm. “Mum?” he couldn’t make out the look in her eyes and it scared him. “Mum please say something, I am sorry and I love you, please tell me what you’re thinking.”

I'm still reading and I like the way this is turning out!

I have read this since the beginning and two words for you: Ruddy Brilliant.

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I have read this since the beginning and two words for you: Ruddy Brilliant.

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oh my gosh!

they were the most emotional parts ive seen yet. i was nearly in tears!

good do some more?

thanks for the comments, hopefully i will be able to put the next section up either today or tomorrow.

thanks xx

great write soon

awwww those scenes were brilliant! grrrr eveil skanky and evil frankie!!

dis is great. i wanna know wat happens next