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This might be the last post for a bit. But it also might not be!
Jess' POVHe stood, his back away from me. I don't believe it's come out. Everything. I don't understand how this baby even survived my overdose. I knew I was wrong to even still be alive. I knew there was a reason for me to kill myself.
"When?" Kris asked. He sounded so upset. How could I have done this to him? He's been here, helping me, he even talked to me when i was a ghost-spirit thing. And I've been lying to him the whole time. The tears prickled my eyes. I knew this was it for us. How am I meant to tell him that it was when we had first got together? That it happened the night when me and Kris officially became a "Couple"? I can't.
"I'm so sorry!" I sobbed, not answering his question. I know he won't forget his question, he's too stubborn.
"When?" He replied, angrier.
"Kris please..." I cried. He turned around. I saw the anger in his eyes, the hurt he was feeling.
"WHEN?!" He raised his voice slightly. I became angry. I wanted to just shout in his face. I love him, yes... But when we get angry at each other, all of my other emotions just seem to go away. I looked at him, smugly.
"The day we got together!" I replied, through gritted teeth. I looked away from Kris. Every time I look at him, I see how much I've hurt him. I hear him sob and sit down.
"Why have you done this to me, Jess?" He asked me. How could I answer that? I don't even know! It was a huge mistake that should never have happened. Me and Zak both agreed on this.
"You know what Kris? I really don't know." I replied, tears still stinging my eyes. "Why else do you think I overdosed?!" I yelled at him. He looked at me in shock. I stood up and ran into the bathroom, locking the door behind me. "And do you want to know something else Kris?" I yelled through the door. "This will all be over in a few minutes, just like my original plan." I screamed. I heard him scramble to his feet. This time I really would do this. This time I'd succeed. I picked up my razor and held the blade to my wrist.
"JESS!" Kris shouted. I ignored him. I sweeped the blade, swiftly, across my wrist.
"ouch!" I screamed. Tears were pouring down my face. This was agony.
"JESS STOP!" Kris banged on the door. I held the blade to my other wrist and prepared myself for more pain.
I slid the blade across my wrist, through my skin and watched the blood pour out. I was starting to feel dizzy. I couldn't stop crying. The pain was unbearable......
"I'm doing you a favour kris. I'm going. I love you." I screamed as pain shot through my arms. I fell to the floor.
"NO, JESS! NO!" He was shouting. "Help! Help!! Please someone!" He started banging on the door again, as the room began to spin. "Jess, Please! NOO!"
Then everything faided away. I was in darness. Just how I'd planned. I was gone. This time, for good.
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