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Jess' POV

“Jessica?”
I slowly wake up and see the nurse standing over me, obviously wanting to do some sort of medical thing. I look around for Zoe and see her sitting in a chair, just watching. I smile at the nurse.
“I’ma just going to checka few zings for you.” She said, in a heavy Italian accent. You’d think I’d be used to it by now. I’d been over here for over a month and hadn’t been out of this room for most of that. I miss fresh air... I actually miss the horrible smell of cars. It’s stupid. Everything’s so stupid.

The nurse started fiddling round with all the machines attached to me. Checking my heart rate, temperature... Everything. Surely I’m ok to leave now. It’s not fair that I have to stay locked up in this.. This Prison!
“Everything looks normal. I shalla go check with your docter.” She smiled at me, taking the notes she’d made and walking out of the room. Zoe stays silent until she knows the nurse is definitely gone.

“Kris came back again.” She said, looking at the floor.
“He did?”
“Yeah. About 10 minutes ago.”
“How long was I asleep?”
“2 hours...?”
“Oh... Ok.” I sigh. “What did he want?”
“He wanted answers, Jess, that you’re going to have to give to him.”
“Yeah, well not right now.”
“That’s what I said to him. Jess, he’s waiting outside.”

I sit up in shock. My eyes widen and my mouth opens.
“What?!”
“Well I couldn’t just say ‘Go away’ could I?”
“Yes you could.” I tell her, pushing the cover down. I try to move to get out of bed but Zoe’s up like a dart.
“Where are you going?” She asks quickly.
“For a shower. Or is that against the law for someone who’s tried to kill herself?” I say, sarcastically.
“No, course not.” She replied, settling back down. Since my bathroom ‘incident’, they’d removed the locks on the bathroom door so now anyone could just walk in. I closed the door and removed my horrible nighty. I looked at myself in the mirror. I was a mess. Greasy hair, no make-up... I didn’t look like Jessica Harris. I looked like Jessica Harris’ mother. That’s what I hate about hospitals. You can’t just casually get up and put on your designer clothes, or your make-up. You have to wear weird pyjamas and you can’t summon the energy to apply make-up. It’s lousy and boring.

When I’m showered I put my hair back into a bobble and change into fresh, clean pyjamas. I look at myself in the mirror. My hairs well passed my shoulders already.
“Jess, you ok?” Zoe asked, knocking.
“Yeah... Fine.” I reply, stubbornly. I know she’s just being nice, but I don’t like her seeing me like this. I’ve asked everyone not to tell my parents about my second burst, but I doubt that’s going to stick. I open the bathroom door.
“What’s he doing here?” I ask Zoe, trying to get back into the bathroom. Kris is sat on the chair Zoe was sat on.
“Jess, he wants to know-”
“-I already told him it was a mistake! I’ve told you I don’t want to talk to him now.” I shout.

“I have the right to know!” Kris pipes up.
“Not when I don’t want to tell you.”
“You have to tell me someday Jess!” He yelled back at me.
“I will! But not now. Kris do you know how much stress you’ve put on me?” He looks to the floor. “Basically Kris, both times, it was down to you that I tried to...”
I couldn’t finish that sentence. I’m ashamed I ever tried to do that. I’m ashamed I just said that. It was a huge lie. Kris was not the reason I tried to kill myself. If anything, Kris was the only reason why I shouldn’t kill myself. It was all my fault. Never his. “I didn’t mean that.” I say quietly, when I see the look on Kris’ face. He looks like he could cry.
“No you did Jess. At times like this, you tell the truth.”
“Well I heard that at times like this, you lie!” I shout back.
“Both of you just stop it!” Zoe shouts, standing in between us. “Jess I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have let Kris come in here again.” She said, facing me. “Kris...” She starts, turning towards him. “Get out.”
“What?!”
“Get out!” She replies, sternly.
“You can’t be serious...”
“Just do something good for a change, and leave it. At least until we’re back home. At least until Zak’s there too.” She said, looking at me. I don’t think I can face seeing Zak again. I’ve seen him twice since I came into this dump, and both times it’s been awkward. We don’t have feelings for each other, we feel guilt for each other.

“I can’t. I’m sorry. I can’t.” Kris replied, walking closer to me.
“What are you doing?” I ask.
“Jess, I don’t care.” He replied.
“What?”
“I don’t care anymore. About Zak and that stupid baby. I only care about you. You getting better.” He said to me, holding my hand. I pull it away.
“Well I can’t Kris.”
“What do you mean you can’t?!” He asked, slightly outraged after he forgave me and I turned him down.
“I can’t because if I do, I’ll only cause pain.” I say, looking at the floor.
“Princess, you always cause pain.” He laughed.
“This isn’t a joking matter Kris.”
“No?”
“No!” I reply sternly.

“Fine. I don’t believe everything that’s happened. The lies, the secrets. Jess I finally forgave you and you knock me back!” He said, sounding really upset. Like I didn’t already feel guilty.
“Kris...” I say, grabbing his hand again. He pulls away and I can see his eyes welling up with tears.
“Come on. I think that’s enough.” Zoe said.
“No.” I whisper. Kris sat down on the chair again.
“Jess, you need rest and Kris... You need to think.” She told him.
“I’ve had enough time to think, thank you Zoe.”
“Yeah, and I don’t need rest until I’m tired.” I shout, sitting myself on my bed. My hair was dripping wet, which was causing my shoulders to get soaked.
“So you two are going to argue?” She asked.
“No.”
“Yes.” Kris replied, I gave him a dirty look.
“No, Zo, we’re not.” I tell her. Kris folds his arms and it was only then that I noticed. Since I’d first come into hospital, I don’t think I’ve seen him wear his usual clothes. In fact, I don’t think I’ve seen him wear any make-up apart from a tiny bit of eye liner.

“If it’s alright with you Jess, I’m going.” She tells me, making her way to the door.
“Zoe, you can’t leave me.” I say, standing up myself.
“Jess, you’ll be fine alright. I’m going to get some sleep. I’ll be back tomorrow.”
“It’s not that. I don’t want to be left alone with... Him.” I whisper towards the end.
“It’s alright Jess. No need to whisper. I have ears like a bat.” He said, irritatingly.
“That’s not something to be proud of.” I mutter under my breath, but Zoe obviously heard because she laughed.
“I’ll be back tomorrow, yeah?” She said, giving me a hug.
“Ok.” I say, hugging her back. She smiles and walks out of the room.

Kris is still sat on the chair in a strop so I just walk past him and lay down in my bed. I roll over and hug my pillow, just thinking about before any of this. I just wish nothing ever happened. I wish I was never pregnant with Malachy’s stupid baby. I wish I never slept with Zak. I wish I never tried to kill myself both times. I wish me and Kris were just happy together. But that’s never going to happen. There’s always a reason for it not to happen, and more often than not, that reason is me.

“I thought I was going to lose you.” Kris spoke. I didn’t turn around to look at him, but I could tell he was crying.
“Well you didn’t.” I reply, without any feeling.

“Do you know how hard the last 2 months have been?!” He shouted. “I’ve had to sit in a stupid waiting room 3 times wondering if you’d survive or not, and all I could think about were the stupid, silly arguments we had. But this time it was different. All I could think about was that you could be dying with him there crying over you, with him coming into the room with your dead body and making a speech, telling you he loved you and always will. Do you know how hard that is Jess? Do you?”

I sat there in shock. The odd tears leaked from my eyes. I didn’t know he’d feel like that. I didn’t know how he could feel like that. Me and Zak could never be a couple. Me and Zak just didn’t match. I admit, I liked what happened between me and him, but I wouldn’t ever make it more than a fling.
“I’m so sorry Kris.” I sob, still not bringing myself to turn around and look him in the eye.
“I know you are Jess. If you weren’t sorry, you wouldn’t have gone and tried to kill yourself.” He muttered. “I need to know though, what made you do it?”
This is it. Time to admit everything. Tell him the story...
“I didn’t mean to. It was just... I- I’m sorry.” I cry. “It was just after I’d had surgery. I was bored and alone in the flat and Zak was there. We put a film on and talked all the way through it, really got to know each other and then... I dunno, we were kissing and we didn’t stop...” I finish, crying into my pillow.
“So you mean, you weren’t even drunk when it happened? You knew what you were doing?!” He shouts. I turn around, quickly, to face him.

“Yes Kris, I knew what I was doing. I needed comfort when you weren’t around. I needed someone I could feel close to. And you don’t understand how much we BOTH regret it, do you? It’s been so awkward between us, neither of us speaking... And then this happens. It just had to happen didn’t it? I’m sorry if you don’t understand how I feel Kris, but I don’t care anymore, because I know what happened and that’s all that matters to me. So if you don’t mind, I’m going to stop talking now. You can either stay and talk to me normally, or you can leave. You decide.” I huff, rolling over again.

“I guess I’m staying then.” He replied. I thought I sensed some humour in his voice, but I’m most likely just hearing things.
“Oh... Ok then.” I say, not knowing what else to say. There’s silence for a few minutes and then I feel him touch my arm. I jump. “For gods sake Kris, don’t do that!” I hiss.
“Jess...”
“What?”
“Jess, we are still friends, right?”
“I don’t know. It’s up to you.” I reply, feeling slightly upset. Friends. Is that all he wanted to be? Just friends?
“Well, I really want to be.”
“Fine.”
“So, you don’t want to be?” He asks me, I turn and face him again.
“Of course I do, Kris, but after everything, I don’t think we can ever be ‘friends’ again. I don’t think we can be anything again.” I felt so upset now. I don’t know what to do. I pull my knees to my chest and rest my head on them.
I feel Kris pull me into a hug.
“We can at least try.” He muttered. I leant against his chest while the tears leaked from my eyes.
“I suppose.”
I don’t believe he’s being so nice to me. I did the unforgivable, and he’s forgiven me. I don’t know what I’m supposed to do now. I need to talk to Zak about me being pregnant, about Kris knowing and ask what we’re going to do. Because I for one, don’t want this baby, and I’m sure Zak doesn’t either.
“How can you forgive me, Kris? How can you be so nice?”
“You know I’m not nice.” He laughed pushing my hair out of my eyes.
“I’m so sor-”
“-Just stop saying it. Please.” He held my hand and rubbed it with his thumb. I didn’t say or do anything. I just left him to do whatever he wanted. I want him to tell me none of this matters and that he loves me and never wants to leave me again, but I know that’s never going to happen. Too much is going on. I just want to know if he still loves me. Does he still love me?
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Kris's POV

This is just stupid. I don’t believe I’ve forgiven her so early, but I had to. I couldn’t watch her suffer anymore. I couldn’t leave her feeling alone. I’m going to be a friend for her, and that’s that. But I don’t want to be a friend for her. I want to be so much more than that, but like she said, too much has happened for things to go back to normal. I’d be surprised if we ever did become friends again, but I know we will. Once she’s better and we get back home everything will be fine. I’m sure.

She fell asleep about an hour ago, and I’ve been sat on her bed with her since. I’ve been so tempted to just cuddle her... But once again, I can’t. She starts stirring and I hold her hand again, but she soon settles back to sleep. I don’t know what to do, watch her sleep, go home... What?

“Kris?” She asked, opening her eyes and looking confused. Then I think she remembered, but instead of looking happy, she looked scared. “No.”
“What’s up?” I asked, sitting up.
“No. You can’t.” She muttered. I stare at her confused.
“Jess, what is it?” I ask her, concerned. She looks really pale and she’s sweating like crazy. I touch her forehead to get a temperature, but it’s freezing cold.
“You can’t be here.” She muttered again, looking around the room. “You c-can’t.” She said, again.
“Jess what’s up?”
“What have you done to me?!” She said, laughing waking up more.
“What?” I ask confused.
“I don’t know!”
“I really don’t have a clue what you’re on about, Jess.” I tell her. She stands up quickly.
“I think I was still half asleep.”

“Where are you going?” I ask her, as she walks into the bathroom.
“To cool down, I’m boiling.” She muttered, running the cold tap.
“Jessica, you were freezing 2 seconds ago when I touched your head.”
“What?” She asked touching it herself. “But I feel so hot.” She said, pulling her top in and out quickly to fan her body.
“Stop Jess, you don’t want to freeze. I’ll go get a nurse or doctor. You’ve probably just got a bug or something.” I say, walking out of the room. I can’t look back. I’m still disgusted with her. I still hate her for what she did.

“Excuse me?” I ask the nurse. She turns and smiles at me.
“Everything ok?”
“Yeah, well... Kind of. I’m not sure. Jessica Harris is sweating like crazy, feels boiling hot but is freezing cold. Just wondered if you could take a look at her...?” I asked.
“Sure thing. Just give me five minutes.” She smiled at me. I walked back into Jess’s room where she was sat with her eyes closed and her chin resting on her knees.
“The nurse is coming through in a minute.” I told her, she opened her eyes and I saw them all red and bloodshot. “Jess?! Are you alright?” I ask, sitting next to her.
“I don’t know what’s going on Kris. I don’t know what’s going on.” She whispered, before collapsing into my arms and crying. I didn’t know what to do, I just held her. Obviously she was feeling really ill. Obviously there was something wrong, but what? What can do this to Jess? What can make her so scared and ill?

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Jess' POV

“Don’t worry Mr Fisher. It’s just a minor infection. She just got frightened that’s all.” The nurse reassured Kris.
“So how long does she have to stay in?” He asked her.
“Well actually-” Her voice drowned out as they walked through to another room. I could see Kris through the window and he was smiling and nodding. I really want to know what she’s saying! After 2 minutes of straining my neck Kris wanders back through with a huge grin on his face.
“Get your bags packed.” He laughed.
“What?” I asked, slightly confused.
“You can leave this dump. Finally...” He muttered.
“But...?” I said. I thought I had an infection. Surely they have to deal with that before I can leave. Not that I want to stay, but I don’t want to be ill when I go home. I still feel absolutely boiling, but the nurse said my temperature is less than normal, not higher.
“Don’t worry about the infection. You have anti-biotics to take at home.” He smiled and hugged me.
“Well that’s great” I said, smiling slightly, but not getting excited. I didn’t feel well enough to get excited.

“You’re not glad?” He asked, pulling away from me.
“No I am. I just feel horrible.” I tell him. He rubs my arms but i feel so hot that i go dizzy and light headed. “Stop it..” I reply walking away from him. “It’s not that I don’t like you here, but i feel so hot, i just don’t want you hugging me or anything.” I tell him. He smiles.
“Well I really should be off now. I have to get some sleep you know.” He said, mockingly. “And Zoe will be wondering why she hasn’t had a call from the police saying I’ve murdered you.” He joked, picking up his coat. Then I remembered what I wanted to ask him earlier.
“Kris?” I mutter.
“Yes?”
“Why have you changed?” I ask.
“What do you mean?”
“I just noticed that.. Well... You’re not wearing your usual gear. No make-up, not dresses... Just Jeans and normal shirts.” I say.
“I know that. I’m the one that dresses me in the morning.” He replies.
“No Kris, I’m asking you why you’re doing it”
“I dunno. I just couldn’t be bothered anymore.” He said, looking at the floor. He smiled at me. “I’ll come back later, yeah?”
“Yeah.”
“Bye.”
“Bye Kris.” I said, waving him away. I walked back over to my bed and just sat down. I was going home. I would be out of this dump. I would be... Free. Although, I still wouldn’t be better. I’d be ill and feeling gross for the next week at least. But still, I can be home. Not home, home but I’d be at my Italy home, where I practically grew up. It was great coming here when I was younger. Learning the language. Making friends. That all stopped when I was 16 though. I never saw them friends again. That’s why I was so excited about coming back; 3 years later. But I doubt I’m going to see any of them again. There were letters at the house from when they’d visited on a holiday, or from those who actually lived there. But I couldn’t reply. I was too upset about Kris, and then this all happened. Pathetic really. I still don’t believe I did that. Guess I just wanted drama.

At around 7 o clock, Zoe came back to the hospital. She seemed so happy but I was already feeling nervous. It was so obvious Kris hated me, and when I get back, I know he’s going to shout and everyone’s going to get upset.
“You ready?” She asks, cheerily. I think about it for a moment. I have everything I brought, which was not a lot. I can’t wait to get out of here, and actually be healthy again.
“Yeah. I think so. I just have to go get my tablets and then we can go.” I say. I give her a fake smile and walk over to the nurse’s station. I wait for a few minutes while they deal with someone else.
“Hello can I help?” Someone asked that I’d never seen before. Probably new.
“Yeah, hi. I’m Jessica Harris. I need to pick up my prescription.” I tell them. She smiles and types something on the computer. It takes her ages. She’s definitely new.
“Aaah, Yes. I’ll just get a doctor to sort it out for you.” She said, smiling and walking off.

It’s still another 20 minutes before I’ve picked up my medicine and I’m actually leaving the hospital. It feels really strange to actually be in a car. It felt strange to smell fresh air. It actually felt strange to see litter. It was weird. A whole month I hadn’t seen this. A month!
“How was Kris then?” Zoe asked as the taxi went around the corner. I suddenly realised where it was going. It was going where I was when I woke up. Where I was when I was...
“Oh God...” I muttered, closing my eyes and burying my head into Zoe.
“Jess?” She asked.
“Zo, this is where it happened.” I whisper.
“Oh my god. I’m so sorry Jess.” She said, hugging me. Once we had passed that area I felt fine and lifted my head up. I still felt really ill and I know this sounds strange, but all I want to do is get into some pyjamas and go to bed. After spending so long like that you’d think I’m sick of it (which I am) but I just feel so ill.
“So how was Kris?” She asked again
“He was... Well upset. And I could tell he still loathes me for what I did. But we were being civil and we cuddled, so that’s a positive sign, right?” I asked. She smiled.
“Definitely.”

When we finally got to the house I stood outside for a minute. This big, beautiful house, with only me, Kris and Zoe in it. And we could stay here for another 2 weeks as it was the Summer holidays already. Really, I only missed 4 lectures because we’re already into the 3rd week of the holidays. I saw the glimmering pool out in the back and the massive garden with beautiful blossoming flowers. This was heaven. I stepped into the house and onto the beige, tiled floors. I walked down the long corridor till I got to my room. It had a new door. The sheets had all been changed; but apart from that, it was exactly how it was before we came. Zoe followed me through with my bags.
“Thanks Zo.” I said, giving her a hug. “I’m so sorry I’ve put you through so much.”
“Don’t worry, Jess. I’m just glad you’re here.” She smiled and walked out of my room again. I heard her talking to Kris. I don’t know where he is but I can definitely hear him. I suddenly hear boots clopping on the floor and I smile to myself. He’s back. The old Kris is back.
“Well, well Princess. It’s nice to see you in fashionable clothes again.” He smiled whilst he leaned against the door. He was wearing a long red top and skinny jeans underneath. He was also wearing (which I’m not too pleased about, but this is Kris we’re on about) my brand new boots which I had only just bought before we came here.
“Kris?! They’re mine!” I said, annoyed.
“Yes...”
“Can I have them, please?” I asked.
“No.” He turned around and walked off. I couldn’t be bothered anymore. I just wanted to go to sleep. I went over to my bag and got out a couple of the tablets I had to take. I walked through to the kitchen to get a glass of water.

“What are you doing?” Zoe asked, watching me take the tablets.
“I’m taking my medicine...” I said, obviously. “Zo, I’m not going down that road again.” I laughed. She smiled.
“Just checking.”
“Well you don’t need to. Trust me.” I said. She went back outside. It was almost half 8 and them two where in the pool splashing about. Good job it’s summer and we’re in Italy, or they’d be freezing! I really want to sit outside and enjoy the last hour of sunshine, but I can’t... No, I could. But I shouldn’t. Oh I don’t know. I’ll go outside for half an hour, then I’ll come back in and go to bed.

“Is Princess coming to join in?” Kris asked.
“No, I’m going to sit on a chair and hopefully feel better.” I laugh, sitting on a deck chair.
“You still feeling ill then?” He said, swimming to the edge of the pool and lifting himself out.
“Oh no, I just have an infection and a bad temperature but feel absolutely fine!” I said, sarcastically. “Yes, I feel ill!”
“Oh...” I can tell he feels awkward.
“Listen, I’m going to go back inside..” I mutter, standing up quickly.
“Wha- Why?” He asked, also standing up.
“Kris... Don’t play dumb.” I said, walking away.
“Play dumb?”
“Yes. You know why I don’t want to be out here.” I reply, turning back to face him. I can tell that he knows but just doesn’t want to admit it. He stands there acting innocent and un knowing. “Kris... This awkwardness. I just can’t stand it right at this minute. I’m going to go to bed and I’ll talk to you tomorrow... When I feel better.” I turn back around and walk away. Just as I’m getting into my room I feel him grab my hand.
“I’m sorry.” He muttered.
“What for?”
“Umm... Well... I don’t really know. Just seemed like the thing to say.” He said, scratching his neck and looking at the floor. I started laughing.
“You big softie.”
“Don’t take it too far, princess.”
“Yeah, yeah.” I laugh, pushing him a little. “Right, go outside and enjoy the last hour of sun. I’m going to bed.” I told him. He pulled me into a hug. I’m really shocked. I expected to come home and he’d be yelling at me. But he seems to want to go back to normal. It’s going to be hell back at halls, when he sees Zak again...
“See you in the morning then.” He said, pulling away and stroking my hair back. “And you really need to straighten this frizz.” He laughed.
“Tell me about it.” I said, rolling my eyes and pushing my hair down to flatten it.
“Get some sleep and feel better.” He said, holding my hand.
“Night Kris.”
“Night.”
We didn’t let go. It was like neither of us wanted to leave. We carried on just looking into each others eyes. I know we both wanted something to happen, but we can’t. It’s over between us. Well, for now. I don’t want to get back with him and then in a few weeks we’ll split up because of Zak. So for now we have to stay friends. He strokes my hand, looks at the floor and then finally pulls away. He smiles at me and then makes his way back outside, to the pool.
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