Let me know what u guys think this is my first fanfic and dont know if its any good.
Trying so hard to forget her feelings for John Paul, Hannah decided to ask Sarah and Nacy if they fancied a girls night out at the loft, just the 3 of them.
'Sarah, Nancy Wait on me' hannah shouted. Catching up with them she told them bout her idea about the night out.
"Yeah thats a great idea Hannah", said Sarah, "we havent spent much time together lately". Nancy agreed.
Finally, a distraction from John Paul.....Maybe she would meet someone she thought to herself.
Getting ready for the night out, Hannah looked disgusted at her bag full of sweets she thought about doing it again. No she said to herself i cant. Wearing her fave dress and killer heels and her hair in curls Hannah went down stairs.
"you look nice" gushed Gilly. "where u off too?"
"The Loft" replyed Hannah
"Dont bother thats where we are going to and i dont need my annoying little sister following me" shouted Rhys
Hannah ignored Rhys and set off to meet Sarah and Nancy.
Inside the loft the girls headed for the bar and ordered the drinks from Warren. "Looking good girls" Warren laughed.
After a few drinks, Hannah was getting a bit drunk, she noticed John Paul he was djing tonight. "Oh great!" she said, "Just ignore him" Nancy shouted "Lets dance, we are here to enjoy ourselves".
A few hours later, Rhys Told Hannah "Just get lost, your embarssing me, Stop drinking". Anoyed she started arguing with Ryhs until someone split them up and pulled Hannah in to the office.
"You? What you think you are doing? Let me out of here" Hannah shouted. "Why have you brought me in here any way"
"Because i care about you and you need to sober up a bit" he said "I dont want you to get chucked out"
"But.....But... You dont even know me, Justin so how can you say you care about me, and why would you like me im ugly and fat" screamed Hannah
"What do you mean your fat and ugly...you are the most beautiful person in this whole club" justin answered.
Moving nearer Hannah he wiped a tear away from her cheek and moved her hair out her eyes and kissed her. Hannah didnt stop him kissing her even though she knew he was bad news. The thought anyone wopuld want to be with her made her feel good about herself. Slowly she began to relax and forgot all the bad things about Justin and thought about how much she really fancied him, she always had, soon she began to undress him undoing his buttons on his shirt one at a time.
"Are you sure you want to do this" Justin wispered in her ear. "yes im sure" hannah wispered back.
Back out side Sarah and Nancy returned from the toilet. "Where is Hannah" Sarah asked Rhys. "How am i supposed to know?" snappped Rhys. "She left Sarah, after her and Rhys argued" Gilly explained to Sarah and Nancy. So the girls left to look for her.
Back in the office, Justin was putting his shirt back on and Hannah was fixing her hair. What have i just done she thouhgt to herself. Nancy is never going to talk to me again.
Hannah got up to leave and Justin told her "I really like you and would like to see you again" Hannah just walked out feeling really bad and started to walk home, half way there she got a phone call from Nancy, oh no she thought what im i going to say to her?
"Hiya Nancy" Hannah answered, "Where are you? Me and Sarah have looked every where for you" Nancy explained, "Sorry Babe I just got so upset with Rhys i just need to leave and im nearly home now so i'll call you tommorow ok?" "ok Take care Han" Nancy replied. "Bye Bye" both said at the same time.
Eventually Hannah got home and went to bed. She thinking about the night and what a big mistake she had made. Justin, i mean he was responisble for Becca being in prison and she would never had been stabed if she wasnt in prison she thought but on the other had she thought about how much she liked him....had she fell for him? What would she tell Nancy if she did really like him? Did she want to loose one of her best friends over a guy?
A few weeks later Hannah still couldnt get Justin off her mind. She had truly fell for him. She thought he was good for her after all she hadnt made herself sick since she had bee with Justin he made her feel good about herself again more than John Paul had before he came out. Finally she thought of john Paul and didnt get that feeling in her stomach again. Yes she thought im finally over him.
"Hey Hannah you ok?" Nancy asked "Umm...Yeah im great thanks Nancy. How about you?" "Yeah Im ok a bit tired tho Charlie didnt settle well last nite". "Thats a shame. Sorry Nancy i got to go to the toilet catch up with you later?" Hannah said trying to get away as quick as posible, feeling guilty about Justin.
In the toilet Hannah was sick but didnt anything of it all she could think about was being with Justin and how she could tell Nancy without her falling out with her.
That night Hannah bumps into Justin and the two of them chat for a while and he asks her if she would like to go out on a date.
"I would love to Justin but i need to tell Nancy about us i just feel so guilty about this and i know she will stop talking to me and i dont think i can deal with that" Hannah explains.
"ok i understand....but if she was my friend i wouldnt let her get in the way of my happiness"
"But considering what happedned with you and Becca do you blame her?" asks Hannah
"Suppose not" says Justin walking away gutted.
Hannah sits thinking about what she should do. She doesnt even have anyone to talk to about it. Should she see Justin behind Nancy's back or should she tell Nancy about it then deceide??
Hannah had being seeing Justin for several months now but still hadnt told Nancy....how could she? She didnt want 2 upset her or even worse loose her.
"Hey guys" Nancy smiled at Sarah, Craig and Hannah in the school common room. "Hey" they choroused. Nancy had her usual rant about Justin and how he should be in prison for wat he did to Becca to this Hannah nods while think that she would be so lost if he went to prison after bumping into him on her way in to Drive and Buy earlier. At this moment John Paul walked in and everything went silent. Finally the silnce fades and and the group start chating away. Soon Craig and Sarah go off for some lunch Nancy asks Hannah how she feels about John Paul now and if she could ever forgive him. "I dont care now Nancy, Ive moved on and i hope one day we can be friends" Nancy smile and says "im so glad i could tell you seem really happy these days" Little did she know it was Justin that made Hannah happy.
That night after school Justin had went to meet Hannah to walk her home. She smiled at him until Nancy snapped "Wats the hell is he doin here?" Hannah realised she couldnt carry on like this. She had to choose Justin or Nancy?
Later that night Hannah went to see Justin at the Loft. He was working. "Hey babe" Hannah said kissing him "im ok Han, wat u doin here?" asked Justin "Im i not aloud to come and see my boyfriend at work?" she laughed
"BOYFRIEND?!?!?!?" Nancy screamed, "You and Him?"
"Im sorry, I tried to tell you but i didnt want to hurt you" Hannah tried to explain
Nancy attacks Hannah and a massive fight begins until Hannah shouts "stop you'll hurt the baby!!!!!!"
Justin grabbed Hannah by the arm and pushed her in to the office at the loft. "BABY....How? Where? When?" screamed Justin "We havent even slept together since....since that night...u wanted to take it slow.....". Lost for words Justin sat down. "Im sorry i didnt mean for it to happen...Im getting an abortion i dont want a baby yet" said a confused Hannah. "im too young...we're too young, We've only started seeing on another" Hannah sobed. Justin still lost for words nooded his head in shock. Hurt at Justin's reaction Hannah ran home sobbing.
With thoughts of how she felt when John Paul came out. She was discusted in her self.Sobbing she stood in front of the mirror with the thoughts of feeling ugly and fat, Hannah stumbled down stairs and grab all she could from the fridge and made her way back to her room and stuffed her face with all the food she had brought up from downstairs after she had finished eating the food she made her way to the bathroom and made herself sick.
That night lying in bed Hannah felt guilty about what she had done earlier. Did she harm her baby?? Will Nancy ever speak to her again?? Will Justin come round?? Did she really want to have an abortion??
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Two days later, Hannah was still feeling guilty about Nancy finding out the way she did. She needed to talk to her but she was ignoring her calls and texts. As was Justin, he wouldnt talk to her. Feeling bad Hannah pulled a bag out from under the bed that was filled with choclate, Hannah started stuffing as much of it as possible into her mouth until she made herself sick again. Eventually Hannah cried herself to sleep.
The next day Hannah got dressed in her best top and jeans, and made her way to the village to speak to Justin after she had decieded she wanted to keep the baby even if he didnt but she decieded it was only right that she told him and it was his choise to be part of the baby's life. Justin had just left his flat when she bumped into him. "Can we talk?" Hannah asked. "About what?" Justin snapped "Us, the baby" answered Hannah "Thought you where getting rid of it?" Justin snapped back "its not it, it is a baby...our baby" Hannah sobbed "i already told you i dont want a baby" answered justin as he pushed past Hannah. Having noticed this John Paul made his way over to Hannah "What was that all about?" enquired John Paul, "None of your business" snapped Hannah, Suddenly Hannah had a sharp pain in her stomach then passed out.
Waking up Hannah didnt know where she was all she could remember was arguement with John Paul, "Where am i?" wispered Hannah still trying to wake up. "Your in hospital" a voice answered, "Is that you John Paul?" asked Hannah, "Yeah your ok but" said John Paul before he could continue "GET OUT" Hannah screamed as a nurse entered the room. John Paul got up and left hurt by Hannah after all the didnt mean to hurt Hannah all they months ago, He still cared for her. "Whats wrong with me, What about the baby is it ok?" Hannah asked the nurse. "Sorry" the nurse said "You have miscarried". Hannah began to sob as Justin entered with the biggest bunch of flowers ever. "Im sorry babe after i left you i thought more about it and i was coming round to the idea of the baby then i bumped it to Tony and he said you had been rushed off in an ambulance, are you ok? What about the baby?" he asked. "Your just saying that because you know the baby is gone just get out and leave me alone" Hannah screamed "But.." Justin said before Hannah told him to get out.
A few days later Hannah was sitting in her room at home when Gilly knocked on the door "Can i come in?" he said slowly opening the door. "I suppose" hannah said with a tear in her eye "Hey whats up?" he asked. "I....I...just feel so alone i dont have any friends the arent speaking to me anymore" said cried and Gilly pulled her near for a big hug "You'll be ok, it cant be that bad" he said, "It is, Nancy, Sarah and Craig arent talking to me and i have pushed John Paul and Justin away." she cried
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Please read my Fanfics: If things were different The Truth That Lies Underneath (Nancy and Justin and Other Characters) Justin and Nancy - A renewed friendship
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