Hi Kim, go to the library and borrow some relaxing tapes, I once had one with the sounds of dolphins, and it really relaxed me.It does work I promise you. Try it, and tell me how you found it.

Hi everyone. I'm having another bad day. Throat still feels kind of tight and I had some trouble eating some food, but I managed to eat an apple, some peanut m&ms and some quavers. I'm just going to try to relax myself and I'm not going to force down anything else if I really don't want it. I saw my counciller today and she said it's okay to feel like this and that I have to try really hard to get through this.

I also have a Doctors appointment at 3:50 this afternoon, so hopefully that will be okay. I got an awful text off my sister today. She said to me 'Well i think your lying. Cos you don't have a reason for it at all. Nothing to worry about. What you going to do if you go to the doctor and he puts you on tablets or sections you?'. It upset me a lot. Noone seems to be able to understand that I honestly can't help feeling like this.

I was so upset by the text that I had to leave my lessons and see the counciller. I need to feel like people are supporting me, not accusing me of lying. It's bad enough that my parents don't understand, never mind have even more people thinking that I am crazy.

I don't know what to do with myself...

xxx

I am sorry to hear your having a bad day i suffer from depression and it is horrible feeling when you feel down you know we are all hear if you want a chat.

Hi Kim

That Was Not Great To Hear What Your Sister Said To You.
Well I Dont Think Your Lying As Ive Been Through It Along With Many Others On Here

I Hope Your Appointment Goes Ok Kim.
And I Wouldn't Worry About Being Upset It Was Awfull

But Have You Any Hobbies You Like Kim Such As Painting,Drawing,Football Ect..

Hiya Kim ,

Sorry to hear you are having a bad day, I wish I could be there to hold your hand but as I cant I send you my love.

Like I said, you are a strong person and I have every faith and confidence in you that you will beat this. I warn you, it will be hard and there will be times when you feel like you've taken 3 steps forwards and 6 six if you know what I mean but it will get better for you. My advice to you is to carry on with the councillor, she is specially trained and will help you see more deeply into your problems. Sometimes looking at a problems from a different angle can help, she will help you do this (I hope I am making sense here). as can talking, we will all be there for you no matter what so dont think you are being a nuisiance (I know i've spelt that wrong, cant be bothered looking it up in the dictionary lol), you are not. We will support you in whatever you need.

YOU ARE NOT CRAZY!!!!, Forget what your sister said, as for tablets,I did'nt want to go on to madication but I found they can help you cope whilst you deal with the depression. I am hoping to come off my medication completely this year, although it will be my GP that will decide that. I have also found that activities like walking can help as well. I am not trying to tell you what to do, just tell you of my experiences in the hope it will help not just you Kim, but many other. I don't claim to know all the answers and I cannot gaurantee my advice will help you. but it may help you to find comfort. I am with you all the way. All my love Michelle XXXXX

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Originally posted by OMGitsKIM:
Well, as you all know today was my first councilling session. It went okay. I talked for ages, cried and basically told her everything which was on my mind. She didn't give me any advice though. And I thought the whole idea of coumcilling was to be able to have someone give their professional help and advice to help you sort out your problems. I aren't sure if I feel any better or any worse right now. But I'm trying to think positive. My friend was supportive, she waited outside for me and gave me a great big hug when I was finished! It was lovely. Anyway, I'd just like some hugs and support from everyone on here if that's okay?

Thanks!
xx

hi Kim!
well done for going to counselling..it is a hard thing to do, go and talk to a complete stranger..
but, as you say, they are there to help you..and i am surprised that you didn't get any advice at all.
i have been seeing a counsellor with the NHS for a little while now, and i have to agree that, after some visits, i don't necesarily feel any different, except maybe relieved to be able to free my chest a little.
it is always helpful to have somebody else's opinion - it helps you to think a little bit more logically and less emotionally..
this i exactly how i feel all the time, i go to the counsellor and i feel that i have been wasting my time thinking the wrong thoughts, concentrating on the lesser important stuff, (even though it seems important to me at the time)
but looking at it from another angle...make things a little clearer..

i hope that this makes some sort of sense...

good luck to you, honey! i hope that things work out for you and your dreams come true...

***it will only work if you believe in it - and yourself**************
i think that you have many friends, on here at least, who support you...i wish you well,

TAKE CARE XXXXXX

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Originally posted by OMGitsKIM:
Hi everyone. I'm having another bad day. Throat still feels kind of tight and I had some trouble eating some food, but I managed to eat an apple, some peanut m&ms and some quavers. I'm just going to try to relax myself and I'm not going to force down anything else if I really don't want it. I saw my counciller today and she said it's okay to feel like this and that I have to try really hard to get through this.

I also have a Doctors appointment at 3:50 this afternoon, so hopefully that will be okay. I got an awful text off my sister today. She said to me 'Well i think your lying. Cos you don't have a reason for it at all. Nothing to worry about. What you going to do if you go to the doctor and he puts you on tablets or sections you?'. It upset me a lot. Noone seems to be able to understand that I honestly can't help feeling like this.

I was so upset by the text that I had to leave my lessons and see the counciller. I need to feel like people are supporting me, not accusing me of lying. It's bad enough that my parents don't understand, never mind have even more people thinking that I am crazy.

I don't know what to do with myself...

xxx

i am sorry to hear this!
your folks are the people who SHOULD be supporting you...
if they are not, walk away from them..
at least for the short term..
ignore your sister - change your mobile number if you have to - you know what you are worrying about and you have friends who do care and are willing to support you.
you are NOT crazy...i doubt that you will be sectioned unless the doc thinks that you a danger to yourself or others.
he may give you something to help you to relax...like valium maybe..not sure...
you need to make time for yourself and be with people who are going to help you to feel positive...not negative..

oh, and don't try to eat if you don't want to...what i do suggest though, is drinking smoothies as well as plenty of water..

take care of yourself...xxxxx

well, of course you have to eat...but don't force yourself...
i get the feeling that you need to learn to enjoy things and that includes food maybe..
one step at a time,honey...

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Originally posted by lucy12:
I am sorry to hear your having a bad day i suffer from depression and it is horrible feeling when you feel down you know we are all hear if you want a chat.

we are here for each other lucy...including you...

take care xxxx

Thank you all for the replies. Yeah, I have been trying to eat, but my throat has been so tight today that I've been struggling again. All that I have had is a bowl of cereal this morning and a banana. My boyfriend is telling me not to worry though, because even though it is only a little bit it is still something.

As for my doctors appointment, he does not want to put me on medication. He is assigning me to councilling when I leave college (because then I will have to leave my college counciller). He said that my pulse is a little fast but my blood pressure seems to be on the good side. I have to go back soon for a blood test because he wants to make sure that I am not feeling like this because of a physical illness.

He also told me not to worry about my eating so much, as it will add to my anxiety. I think I'm going to try to have something to eat in a bit, but I really don't feel like I wan to.

I was dreading coming home. I slept at my boyfriends house last night, as I just couldn't take the idea of being near my family.

I'd appreciate any advice anyone can give me right now, as I am not feeling too good. Thanks everyone!
xxx

Your Most Welcome Kim

Remember Were All Hear For You

Yea The Doctors Seemed To Got Well From What Your Saying And Just Follow Doctor Orders I Supose

If You Have AnY Hobbies Suck As Painting Or Drawing These Might Take Your Mind Of Things

Hiya Kim,

Are you MSN by any chance, if you are then get in touch with me and we can talk privately. Cant put any personal details on here, else i would be kicked off.

Till then, take care, stay strong and remember I am alway here for you. XXXXLove Michelle

Hi Michelle, yes I do have MSN, but since I can't put my details on here then I don't know how I can give you it.
xxx

hi kim,

how are you today sweetheart..

jan xx

Hi all, hope you are all wellon this beautiful summers day, not long now to wait for our beloved Paul to be back with us. I hope he has had a nice break, he deserves it.

Take care, Enjoy the sun XXXX

yes thanx michelle...will reply in a tick...

jan xx

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Originally posted by SPOTTYDOG1:
yes thanx michelle...will reply in a tick...

jan xx

Okies, speak soon. XXXX

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Originally posted by SPOTTYDOG1:
hi kim,

how are you today sweetheart..

jan xx

Hi Jan,
Sorry I wasn;t online yesterday. My parents forbid me from going on the computer.
I'm okay-ish today. Still have a tight throat but I've just been to my counciller and she said that it's okay to not eat as much as I usually would, because it plays a big part in anxiety. My body isn't functioning properly, so when it does start to function well again, then I will begin to eat a bit more, even if it is only little things. She said that I should be proud that, considering everything which has happened that I have managed to eat an apple and a twirl today. (So I am proud of myself)
How are you?
Thanks for looking out for me!
xxxx

Hi Kim, how are you today? you have my addy if you want to talk.

hi kim sorry to here your parents wouldnt let you on the computer..i suppose they worry about who you are talking to...
yes just eat small amounts and try to make sure some of it is reasonably healthy so at least you are getting some vitamins inside you..
i can contact you but wont do anything unless you want me too..if not dont worry..
keep your chin up and be strong as i know you are being...
i am thinking of you...
lots of love..

jan xx